Sorry peeps blogging has been horrible without a laptop. I have my very mediocre apple device, but the format sucks to a degree. I would not have thought a laptop was going to be a necessity in my case. I guess I have been the more practical type. The last few days have been ultra-chaotic I will tell you that. Now before we turn this charade into a narrative, let me warn you names will be changed to protect privacy and identity. You know in case this comes out later yeah, no. Lets start with how my career is in shambles. My relationships at work are fucking awful, I will tell you that. In case you did not know I work at Amazon. It is this huge overrated, online shopping franchise mega thing. Yes, they have great shit at a great price, but the way they treat their employees is awful. In any internet search you would find that out, that's not the issue even though in my book it is a moral dilemma. Some days I did care that I was not treated like a person, and there were days I didn't care. I just needed the money.
Hold on let me start you from the beginning with the people I met. The first person we will talk about is Casey. She was everything I did not want to be, ironically with her dark hair and skinny figure. She had a way with words to a point where it got annoying, but I accepted her. Might I add she was having an identity crisis, she was from Brazil but she figured she might as well be black. She started off great until vanity kicked in. We were cool we talked everyday and almost got fired together, but all good things come to an end. She was not the only one in my group, there was also Mai a stick up attitude having Korean girl who swings her hips WAY too hard. She never took interest in me when we hung out not even when me and Casey had our falling out. The most I know about this girl is she rolled her eyes a lot and got drunk any chance she got, she also had a daughter and a military boyfriend who she eventually left. The best thing about her was all the food she ate and the fact that she shared it. Crazy right😒. Already a clique I am not fitting into. Lets not forget Carrie, she was smart and kind of nerdy. I kinda thought her and I would have been good friends, we even attempted to live in the same apartment complex. Sadly I lost her too, Casey. Did not matter though, all they did was bad mouth me because I say a lot of stupid things.
Let me tell you more about me, I am socially awkward but I do my best to fit in, not sure why I waste my time considering fitting in, it is really a thing of the past or a part of those sappy high school movies we all have a guilty pleasure for. The problem with me is I listen to everyone around me and I try to appeal to the things they like (yes I know, bad idea). Casey liked sex and money and hated everything food wise, Carrie was a kid loving, social nerd who prided herself in everyday life, Mai liked hot guys and hated work. Where did all of this leave me? Stuck on idiot that is what. I recall a time we were talking about cars and where our money goes because Casey liked to bring up her being a model and her trust fund, Mai kind of had a cars are a waste attitude and Carrie told us all about her illegal driving. I need to remind you that these girls are ahead of me by a few years 😘. Anyway back to the point, the stupid thing I said was "I spend more money on my car then I do my kids." Only because Mai brought up how kids should not be spoiled and the rest of the group awkwardly agreed. So my dumbass decides to play along. They all shamed me, and Carrie had to make it a point that she was the better parent. From there on out all I did was put my foot in my mouth.
I do not really think these girls liked me. I think they simply needed to downplay someone to make themselves feel better. The group was so unholy and I was attached to Casey's side like an ugly step sister. It got so bad people kept associating me with her. If she did not come to work for some reason, a hoard of co-workers would rely on me for the answer, as if I had one. However I subjected myself to the abuse, but can I be honest I just wanted a friend? No, I was basking in the glory of the fact that whoa I have this really popular friend and that does not happen everyday who would not be ecstatic right? I am always over compensating for something, but as I tell you more, you will come to find out just how many lessons Casey taught me. It was a really wild adventure, but unfortunately she quit, and Carrie (the hard worker do-gooder of the group ) got fired for stealing from the break room. All I am left with is Mai who is so stuck up at this point, she would not acknowledge me if I wave, but I did not really care, she was always making better friends. I wonder what she says when people ask her about why she does not hang out with me.
This is just part one there is so much more in my life to come, but not as dramatic as Casey falling in-like with two different guys and having to screw both of them, back to back just to figure out which one she should date. Keep in mind this girl is a super Christian with an insatiable love for wine and gossip within the work place. There is more in part two.
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