First Impressions?

Now we discuss my fair share of first impressions.

Are we all great at first impressions? No. Have we all, had our fair share of first impressions? Of course. Now I know as my audience none of you know me, but I will give some brief insight! Sometimes I am nice and sometimes I am too nice. I do more for others then they do for me and that sucks I know and I probably should grow up and become cold and callus like most people in this world. However I never found that to really fit me. So now I am just super naive, that is not the point of this post. Anyway, I just want to know why first impressions are a thing? It does not seem like it should be a thing, to be honest. Not everyone can make great first impressions, plus awkward moments are a thing this day and age. Lets admit we all can be embarrassing in more ways than others. I just do not think first impressions are fair, not to mention the liars who make great first impressions. I feel like  a standard has been set that none of us can meet and that we have to pretend we have our lives together when in reality very few of us do.

When it comes to people meeting me for the first time I can say I am very self conscious and that is something that has always been with me, but what do you do? You grin and bare it, like we do with most things we do with our lives. I think the odd thing is, that I make a great first impression actually. Mostly with boyfriends and their families.I have not really had anyone's family not like me. Until the break up, which is socially acceptable because when you break up it is definitely over, especially with the family in most cases. I think the first awkward first impression I made was with my ex (second baby daddy) and his mother, I guess it is awkward when you bring home a random pregnant girl who you met in college. All in all his mom still said hello while ogling my large belly, but it was okay I smiled and did my best not to pass out. Moms can be super intense, right? It is better to know I did not do that thing where I start talking and making a complete idiot of myself. However, it was a comfort to know that her disappointment was in her son and not me, I am quite sure it came around later though because like I said, "Some things I do are in very poor choice."

Ever since then I have not really had any bad first impressions, but I do get lectured a lot for my demeanor, I should talk right and stand up straight and not curse like a sailor, but the odd thing is none of that goes into my first impression so I never knew why it was relevant to me. No one ever gets to the negative part until they have either dated me or have known me for a while. I think the most borderline thing is that most people want you to change and put away all the bad things about yourself because they need someone to approve of you and I never really liked that concept. It takes us a long time to love ourselves, so why should we go back to not loving ourselves for someone who is not going to like you or even know you in ten years or sooner? I put a lot of time and effort into myself and I am really proud of who I have become in the long run. I am trying to put my best foot forward, even if that foot comes from that part of me. I do not know if I could be asking too much, maybe I am just naive, but I am a firm believer that we should just stay open-minded and love everyone no matter what first impression they make, right? Yeah? No? Ha-Ha who knows all this is just my opinion and just a narrative of how I feel about first impressions. I guess I need more experience with this among other things for sure.