I never said I wanted to write it, but here it is. Lets talk about the one person who basically ruined everything. Now this is a narrative about how not everyone is good for you and if you do not see it ahead of time it could potentially ruin you for the better or the worse. Again I State names will be changed.
This is a point in time after one of my children was born. Now, like I said earlier I was always one for helping people, so naturally when this comes up I do not hesitate. So what crazy thing could pop up in the midst of me having everything I needed right there in life? A message out of the blue, a message on my Facebook from someone I have not seen since middle school. That is right, an unsuspecting Jake N. William. I did not remember much about him except that he was kind of a "know it all" and for some reason a lot of the girls found this attractive as well as his negativity and indecent way of dressing. I, at the time, did not see it. I was roaming the halls on my own agenda. The odd thing is that later on, he is going to state that he remembered me very well.
Lets talk about the message. It was odd in its very own nature. The first one he sent was really innocent. He just messaged me to see if I had a friend of a friend that I knew, but I did not and we kind of left it at that. Now, all was fine. My life was still in order until about a week after that, he came back and he had a mission for me to go on and boy was it a wild one. The mission was for me to go stalk his ex girlfriend, 'boy how awkward that must have been for him.' I mean it must have looked bad because it made him look crazy, like he just could not let it go and move on. Now that was fine until he gave the reason why, which actually made the whole thing make sense. She just had a baby and he did not know if it was his because there was indeed cheating on his and her part.
I, like the idiot I was, sympathized and helped him out. I went the whole fucking nine. I added her and did that forceful reconnection. Keep in mind we really did not talk in high school, I mean we barely even saw each other in the hallway. He was okay with it because I was the one doing the dirty work and that was always fun. I mean I really felt stupid in the end because it turns out it definitely was not his child, but that is beside the point. There is one thing I need to add first, this fucker was smart, and I mean SMART. He knew how to answer every question in a way that did not seem like we were pushing the issue on this kid and with that, I was genuinely interested. It was scary because I sure as fuck did not know anyone that clever. Might I add he was also charming and can hold a crazy amount of conversation. He sure can butter someone up when he really wants something because I was really beautiful in that inbox and he was for sure very interested in me at the time.
Now this just was not a one day thing, might I add this went on for months at a time. It was like he was desperate but yet patient. An odd combination I know but unless I post the messages you will never know how smooth he was. It was a nice change of events for once if you ask me, someone new to talk to. That was until poor little Jake starting causing trouble, after we would talk and he ease into my life more and more. I found him to be getting more personal day by fucking day and then it happened, he ht me with it, the one thing that guys always ask after we start talking! He asked too see the girls, but he was charming about it if you ask me, its like he was such a horn dog but really respectful about it. He made it seem like he didn't want too ask but he did, I almost want too say he mind fucked me but that would be a little much. I'm not gonna lie though I definitely hesitated because I was in relationship at the time but I figured one picture wouldn't hurt.
There I go being stupid again because it did not stop there he wants to see the whole package and boy that was a fucking loop too be thrown for. What was killing me was that he was so charming about the whole thing it was crazy because we had just started talking. I did not even know if he had a girlfriend or anything, but I was like fuck it why not, it is not like we are ever going to see each other right? He was actually impressed with my body for some reason, which was weird too me because I had just had kids and on top of that I can see the type of girls he can pull and girls like me aren't on that list for anything in the world so I kind of felt flattered I guess and that why I gave it because he built my self esteem. To this day I hate him for even messaging me in the first place and being as cruel as he was as to make me think he was worth it.
It went from pictures too messaging about our deepest desires but he made sure he didn't lose sight of the target which was who did that baby belong to genetically, so I guess that's a good thing. I just got so lost in him and it was scary. I had a massive like for him and it was only a few weeks of talking again. Its amazing what charm will do for you in that case. We want from Facebook, to kik, too plain iPhone messaging ad somewhere I was falling in love and I just didn't know where.What sucks I wasn't as happy as I was when I wasn't talking too him as stupid as that sounds. We actually developed a kink relationship and he was my master and I submitted to him on a daily and he loved it! The problem is I lost sight of everything in the background its like I became obsessed with him! I wasn't proud of my self obviously but we have to make the best out of it, we always wanted too See each other in person as much as we can, I even offered him a bit of money to help out with the trips since he lived so far away at the time and it was great we just worked. He's so solid and distant and emotional and I fed off of that and slowly I became more engaged into trying to fix him.
Now this only part one and this is really only background and the reason for this is so you get a feel for Jake and who he was at the time, I am not even sure who he was at the time but what I did know was that he was important to me and he made me feel like anything is possible. I honestly wanted to marry him from that day but at the same time I had a sneaking suspicion he was gonna end up ruining me down the line.
Steer clear of the wolf in sheep's clothing.
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