The intro to the chapter of Jake.

We are going to fast forward a little bit however, as we do that, we are actually reversing because the idea of this blog is that nothing is in order. We are going back at least 3 years and I am going to give you an intro to Jake. Ah yes, Jake. A very vague but influential person that was in my life, now a great deal of experiences stem from him and that is why he is very important to me. I should not have been putting off about writing about him, but as I was surfing my Tumblr for the many emotionally driven posts I made about him, one of them stuck out to me so I figure why not start his chapter here. It was a poem actually because at that point I was not truly sure what road he was taking me down, but here goes the poem it is called: How am I? (Do me a favor and try not to make the post more sappy than it is, it definitely has that teen-angst feel to it so please do it justice:)

How am I supposed to remain in love with you if you do not even text me back? How are we supposed to live together and build a future, if you will not even let me help you when you need it? How are you supposed to fall in love with me if when we talk, you are too vague? How am I supposed to know how you feel about me when I do not hear from you days on end? Am I supposed to know you care when I text you and you cannot even return my messages. How can you tell me I mean something to you when you make me feel like you are not even there? How am I supposed to be comfortable with the stability of our relationship if I cannot tell if you even like me or not? How am I supposed to be happy with you when you cannot even trust your own feelings about things? How are we going to move forward if you cannot even say you love me? How can we stay together forever if you are so stuck on being hurt? 

One day I hope you will be able to answer all my questions without running away or hiding from yourself. One day I hope you do open up and realize that I do love you and that I will do everything for you, until then I guess I will sit and wait and pass the time away. Please do not make me regret giving my heart to you because once upon a time, I was hurt by someone just like you.