From time and time again, I end up meeting some people who cannot love themselves. I find a spark within me to make sure I change the world and help people see themselves for the better. She was always very sad and everyday, just about, I watched her cry about the callouses of the world. It broke every string in my heart. I kind of pictured the simplicity of it, maybe I would have been happier if someone had written me a letter? Maybe all of my insecurities would have gone away over night? I guess in my world I will never know, but what I did know, I was going to do it for someone else in hopes that maybe it would change theirs.
We had gone through a rough spot, arguing and betrayal here and there, but our final argument is what put a nail in my coffin. I had lost myself and became so vile and so vain, but she never forgot the letter, even when she had forgotten me. For that I will always be grateful. Be kind to everyone and write them a letter, you never know where it might take you. The letter is from 2015 and it also posted on my Tumblr.
Dear Yesenia, you are a very soft, sad and misunderstood person. Who doesn't realize that they have the whole world ahead of you. Your a great person and you amaze me everyday because even though you are sad you keep moving forward. A lot of the wrong people have hurt and talked about you and you cant seem to cope and process your feelings. I am so sorry for the way people in this life have decided to treat you, that includes friends, boyfriends and family. I really hope you can move pass all of the hurt and have a bright future. Your not fat, stupid, annoying or anything everyone has been telling you. Your so much better then that and you will alwys be better then that. You may not accept it now, or even later but one day you will wake up and realize that you shouldnt be treated anything less then wonderful. I have faith in you and I always will. I also hope that you will treat your kids way better then your family has treated you and remind them everyday how loved and special they are. It makes me sad to see you because I have been where you are too many times in life and it hurts to see someone else go through it even worse that I cant do anything about it other then talk you through it. Its your life and it os for you to fight your own battles. You are a human being with feelings just like the rest of us and the faster you understand that the faster you will realize you were great from the start. Smile be happier not a lot of us get to wake up and just get through the day like you do. I would prefer to do lots of drugs or just not exist. Dont define yourself by the perception of others as long as you know ypur great you will in fact always be great. Dont ever let anyone take ypur happiness away from you. Not me, your, mom, your friends, a stranger, or even yourself. Your perfect and your alwys gonna be perfect. There is only one of you in this life and thats all theres ever going to be. So please promise me and I mean solidly promise me that you will start being a happier person and that you will start to love yourself. The more I learn about you the more I would love too keep as a long term friend because you remind me of a child someone who constantly needs reassuring and to be guided through life. Thats why I talk to you as if you were one of my kids. I wish I knew you sooner so I can help you avoid some of the things your going through. Your young and need to start enjoying life instead of sitting and crying, because I believe that you are so much better then that. I dont want you sitting 50 years from now sitting and regretting not enjoying yourself when you were young because you sat stressed out about friends and a love life. I believe you can do great things and be anyone who you want to be in life. Even if we aren’t friends in the future I hope that ypu take everything I tell you and go far with it because you deserve to hear it. Now I dont seem like I say much which is true because I am very keep to myself as you know. However I just want you to know that people come and go all they want and the only ones that you need are ones that actually decide to stay in your life. One day your gonna be A okay and are gonna learn from all of your mistakes and you will live a happier better life a life you never thought you could have. You may not see the same things that I see but thats okay because I believe one day you will and when ypu do I promise that it is going to be the best thing in the world. One day your going to happier then you ever thought was possible and I hope that you havr someine to share it with and I believe that you will because somedy someone is going to love you more then anything in the world. Your smart and a very capable person. Your communication sucks but that is something that can be fixed. I hope your self perception gets better as time goes on because it seems you are really stuck to the past and that makes me sad because that isnt doing anything but destroying your future and I hope you are awre of that. I hope you are aware that if you keep up a negative mindset that it is going to be difficult for someone to put their heart into you. Smile and let go of all thr negative things in this life your beautiful, smart, and very bright girl whis going to change the world and change the way people think about you. I wish you nothing but best and you will always have my help if you need it. Just keep moving forward and smile like nothing bothers you.
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