I'm not making it a point to get on anybody at the moment, so don't feel offended at first. This is more of a vent too the person who offended me in the worst way possible. It was like he chewed up my insecurities and threw them up on me. All because I didn't find his regular sense of humor funny. The worst part of it was that wasn't my fault, him not being funny is his problem. Keep in mind I went too middle school with this boy and he had a crush on me at one point. He comes back from time too time too remind me of the worst things. I didn't like him because he was always trying too change me and that wasn't something I can put my pride aside for.
Now I am not saying he's a bad person, but he has a hard time keeping himself out of other peoples equation and what I mean by that is... just like the majority around here he can't find the opportunity too go mind his business. He was feeling extra salty that day because he had offered me to be friends with benefits but I have been constantly avowing him, simply because he gets over judgmental when he doesn't get his way. We discussed my OCD and he felt like was nothing and that I can sweep it under the rug like most problems. Now he we have someone not fully versed in their mental illnesses.
My self deprecating humor among my dry take on my existential crisis was one of the many things about me that agitated him. He told me how much help I needed because I was dwelling on my insecurities when in fact I was self deprecating too build thick skin. Classic right? Well it wasn't that easy, he tried too bribe me Into the dark side with analytics and facts in which he agreed with. I wasn't buying it though, he use too be more understanding and let people be themselves. However this day and age it seems like he lost himself or that he is overcompensating for something. To top it off the conversation started in the first place when he was telling me about he just received his forklift license, and that he wanted me bare naked on the top of his Peruvian backseat. Or some weird metaphor I couldn't understand.
The fun part was that I got stoned to death for having a comfort zone, he bamboozled me with all these Ideas and feeling he had behind it and accused me most definitely of being a child. I wasn't sure where all the personal attacks came from and I was for sure turning into the aggressive girl he wanted too see in the beginning but it wasn't quite as he planned. At that point he grew very agitated with me and became passive aggressive. I dint mind at least he wasn't responding as fast as he use too. I remember reading all of this and taking it all in as I ate I cream on the couch in my undies. I also saw COPS filming down the way. All in all it was a long day and I couldn't find in me too let this guy ruin a completely mediocre day. I finally start getting real with the kid and my past history at the psychiatrist and what my OCD has done too e in the past. That must have really jerked his nerves because at the end of the conversation all he could say is how he supported me.
We left it at that and I went my own separate way. I know this sounds a little dramatic but this was only like a week ago, he didn't block me on the book so I guess we are good. I never really thought about how far opinions go after that point. Usually they never get that deep. Unless I have been talking too the wrong people after all of these years. It didn't hep that he himself was already smart, so after that I figured I was I gonna be immersed into the world of "Its black and white no in between". He didn't have a bad opinion he a had bad persistence too go along with it, he didn't pick his words or his facts right and damn sure came on too aggressive. He probably doesn't know that and I know for sure he doesn't care.
In conclusion the idea of this post was how far are we really ready too take our opinions? Some can go the whole nine yards the others might just throw it out there and leave it alone if you don't entertain it. The mind is an interesting place if you ask me. You know what I would love! Your opinion on this post good or bad spill it.
My self deprecating humor among my dry take on my existential crisis was one of the many things about me that agitated him. He told me how much help I needed because I was dwelling on my insecurities when in fact I was self deprecating too build thick skin. Classic right? Well it wasn't that easy, he tried too bribe me Into the dark side with analytics and facts in which he agreed with. I wasn't buying it though, he use too be more understanding and let people be themselves. However this day and age it seems like he lost himself or that he is overcompensating for something. To top it off the conversation started in the first place when he was telling me about he just received his forklift license, and that he wanted me bare naked on the top of his Peruvian backseat. Or some weird metaphor I couldn't understand.
The fun part was that I got stoned to death for having a comfort zone, he bamboozled me with all these Ideas and feeling he had behind it and accused me most definitely of being a child. I wasn't sure where all the personal attacks came from and I was for sure turning into the aggressive girl he wanted too see in the beginning but it wasn't quite as he planned. At that point he grew very agitated with me and became passive aggressive. I dint mind at least he wasn't responding as fast as he use too. I remember reading all of this and taking it all in as I ate I cream on the couch in my undies. I also saw COPS filming down the way. All in all it was a long day and I couldn't find in me too let this guy ruin a completely mediocre day. I finally start getting real with the kid and my past history at the psychiatrist and what my OCD has done too e in the past. That must have really jerked his nerves because at the end of the conversation all he could say is how he supported me.
We left it at that and I went my own separate way. I know this sounds a little dramatic but this was only like a week ago, he didn't block me on the book so I guess we are good. I never really thought about how far opinions go after that point. Usually they never get that deep. Unless I have been talking too the wrong people after all of these years. It didn't hep that he himself was already smart, so after that I figured I was I gonna be immersed into the world of "Its black and white no in between". He didn't have a bad opinion he a had bad persistence too go along with it, he didn't pick his words or his facts right and damn sure came on too aggressive. He probably doesn't know that and I know for sure he doesn't care.
In conclusion the idea of this post was how far are we really ready too take our opinions? Some can go the whole nine yards the others might just throw it out there and leave it alone if you don't entertain it. The mind is an interesting place if you ask me. You know what I would love! Your opinion on this post good or bad spill it.
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