I know this isn't really going to sound like a narrative like the stuff I usually write about but something in the last few days reminded me how my life is moving faster then ever but my dreams are getting left behind. I went too work one night in distress because I was tired of almost nearly getting fired from my job because I was tired to of being a mindless slave of the company. That very same night I found someone who had the same passion as me. A new hire from one of the other facilities. I caught him going up the elevator talking about how the shift in the department didn't make sense, basically how the company as a whole didn't make sense. Once we stepped out of the elevator it was crazy. All we could talk about is horrible everyone was treated and how they became a slave to the system.
It was true we worked day in and day out and we give our all everyday. However if you didn't hit the numbers you were nothing more then a waste of time but hat what it was like everyday but all anyone could focus on was weather or not they could make if they didn't have their job. It was sad and day in day out I was really getting tired of it and all I wanted to do was walk away but the problem with that was I was trapped between my kids and the bills so I had no choice but to deal with it. My job is as awful then as it is now and its only getting worse. The basis of my job is too be a robot and count inventory like a brainless drone. The only thing that can save me is my imagination and it was the worst. Its hard not to focus on the numbers and the fact that its only 6 hours in and my feet were pulsing. All I wanted to do is run out the door and never look. That dream will never be realized. Until the conversation in the elevator brought me back to life.
Now back tracking back to the conversation at hand. His name was Erin and he didn't realize he was about too change my perception forever and a day. The crazy thing was that his final realization came from Instagram it was quote that was going to change us both "they pay us salaries to give up our dreams". Once it reached my ears its like the world started spinning and everything at hand was turning in circles. I couldn't breathe and I was praying for a miracle as I did the walk of stress and despair back to my assigned position. I was isolated and alone with these thoughts screaming at me, I panicked and I had to take a breather in the bathroom. As soon as I came out I decided it was time for me to make an even break for it. I was stupid for considering spending the night because my dreams have always come first and always encouraged others to do the same. I went home and I tossed and turned and I finally decided I didn't want to be another person who doesn't follow through with what could have been. I was a skeptic though considering my dream was to be a writer and that its dreams like that, that don't pay the bills.
I went in a few days later and I talked to one of the most level headed co-workers I have and I asked him the big question "what are dreams made of and how do you get there". His answer was this "definitely not this place, take it month by month and keep working on yourself". I ate it up and I made sure my follow through game was strong. I have a lot of heart, always have and always will. I'm that person who will chase their ideas and dreams to the end of the earth if I have to. He told me I should start putting myself out there and submit my transcripts of everything I have ever written and to get out there and don't give up because its people like me who change the world because I'm not scared of what the world will throw at me. In that moment I knew he was right and as I ran off to go say hi to my many befriended co-workers, I kept replaying his words in the back of my head and I was set the rest of the night.
I need who ever reads this to realize that dreams don't become reality without work. That they're yours dreams because you have such a passion and such a fire in you, that you are willing to chase it down by any means necessary. It's not just believing in yourself its about coming out happy in the end weather you reached the goal or not and it's not settling for less and it never will be. Its about committing to that dream like its a full time job while not losing sight on why you fell in love with it in the first place. Everyone who's famous or a millionaire woke just like me and you and they never stopped even after they reached their goal. Keep going like nothing can stop you.
Now back tracking back to the conversation at hand. His name was Erin and he didn't realize he was about too change my perception forever and a day. The crazy thing was that his final realization came from Instagram it was quote that was going to change us both "they pay us salaries to give up our dreams". Once it reached my ears its like the world started spinning and everything at hand was turning in circles. I couldn't breathe and I was praying for a miracle as I did the walk of stress and despair back to my assigned position. I was isolated and alone with these thoughts screaming at me, I panicked and I had to take a breather in the bathroom. As soon as I came out I decided it was time for me to make an even break for it. I was stupid for considering spending the night because my dreams have always come first and always encouraged others to do the same. I went home and I tossed and turned and I finally decided I didn't want to be another person who doesn't follow through with what could have been. I was a skeptic though considering my dream was to be a writer and that its dreams like that, that don't pay the bills.
I went in a few days later and I talked to one of the most level headed co-workers I have and I asked him the big question "what are dreams made of and how do you get there". His answer was this "definitely not this place, take it month by month and keep working on yourself". I ate it up and I made sure my follow through game was strong. I have a lot of heart, always have and always will. I'm that person who will chase their ideas and dreams to the end of the earth if I have to. He told me I should start putting myself out there and submit my transcripts of everything I have ever written and to get out there and don't give up because its people like me who change the world because I'm not scared of what the world will throw at me. In that moment I knew he was right and as I ran off to go say hi to my many befriended co-workers, I kept replaying his words in the back of my head and I was set the rest of the night.
I need who ever reads this to realize that dreams don't become reality without work. That they're yours dreams because you have such a passion and such a fire in you, that you are willing to chase it down by any means necessary. It's not just believing in yourself its about coming out happy in the end weather you reached the goal or not and it's not settling for less and it never will be. Its about committing to that dream like its a full time job while not losing sight on why you fell in love with it in the first place. Everyone who's famous or a millionaire woke just like me and you and they never stopped even after they reached their goal. Keep going like nothing can stop you.
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