Now let me take you on an adventure with Jake. From his business, to just taking a trips and seeing sights. He had some of the craziest ideas and often I ran with it like and idiot but this particular trip was gonna make me look three times as bad. We never really put together why love drove us to do stupid things and when we try to figure it out we just get our feelings hurt and it sucks. So heres a narrative in which you all can judge me for.
Now where should I begin? Lets start with the fact that Jake had been planning a vacation trip for us for the longest and that he was going to take me the very city when he had all of this planned in a few months in advance. Now where were we going exactly? Any City north of California for some reason. So we packed up the morning before and got all our stuff ready. We met up halfway and we caught a ride in my car. There were certain parts of the drive where I had to hide in the backseat because Jake indulged in shady activities with his friends. So he always says it was best that none of them see me.
When we actually got on the road driving city through city things got rough. Jake didn't really talk to me, however when he did it was really smug and he found new ways to hurt my feelings. I didn't care at the time, I had accepted him for who he is. He sort of understood that, in so many paraphrases I guess you could say. Jake was always heart broken and in his feelings when it comes to past relationships and the way he let you into his heart. The drive itself was exhausting and we never really made long trips of this manner, we didn't even make that many stops. His music was loud and his thoughts are far out there, he can't be reached. I kinda hated it and made my to the backseat to listen to my music.
The worst part of the trip was the fact that he had the windows down and it was freezing cold. Jake didn't care the point of the trip is that its supposed to be comfortable for him. We come to find out were on our way to Oregon. No need to explain why because I never really got that answer myself to be honest. We had a hell of a time once we got there. We went on a mission for cash and a motel room for the night.Our personalities never clicked and we always ended up arguing and we could never figure it out but this day seemed to be going smooth. He had done his daily runs and he dropped me off at this Starbucks for a few hours and I watched movies most of the time.
So now the next phase of the trip was that we found a nice motel to stay at and it was cute little place if you disregard the types of people who were standing around. Things were great we got there and got settled in and I showered and collected my thoughts. It was a long trip and I was tired and I couldn't get it together. Jake was exhausting me with his constant nagging about the quality of his life and making my stomach turn with his lane shifting. Other then that I was ready to relax.
Well heres where things go awry a little bit. I get out of the shower and I am dressed. Everything is going smooth until I get out of the shower and Jake decides to tell me he has a friend who's coming by and that I have to drive about the town for a few hours. Naturally I got mad and of course we argue, he tried to sweet talk me and naturally it almost worked and it was working until I found out that this friend was an ex of his. It was a fight over the car key at first and boy was that something awkward. I mean think about it Jake is 6'2 and weighs like 200lbs he could obliterate me if he wanted to. Good thing he didn't, he just got mad enough to throw MY stuff back into the car and give the key just to tell me "don't come back until the morning".
I was crying and I was mad as shit, so what did I do? I did exactly that I drove around Oregon through the summit of a mountain until I finally calmed down and collected my thoughts and I decided to back until he texts me about her spending the night with him. While I slept in the car, I was mad all over again and I slid my car off the side of a mountain (safely, missed a tree by a few inches) I got back on the freeway and I decided the best thing for me and my heart was too go back to Cali and let the bitch he was with take care of him.
Well heres the part where I turn into the biggest idiot on the plant. I slept in the car and I forgave him, as we stupidly drove home the next morning. I felt like an idiot but I couldn't explain it I was in love. I learned from it though and I learned the way Jake works. Other girls will always come before me. Love makes us do stupid things trust me, so with that being said if your significant other isn't treating you like they're your everything the feel free to leave and don't subject yourself to that. You are worth more then that.
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