Tuesday, September 4, 2018

Politician or team player? PT1

Another fun narrative guys, but this time we are going to take a step back and take a look into my work life and all the drama going down that path. Not sure where I left off, and that might leave some of you who do know where we left off all types of confused, but bear with me I am only going to write about the most current events for everyone to get perspective into where I'm at right now. This is kind of like "dog days", but definitely more satirical.

Lets fast forward to my last three days under what we call at work "the firehouse". Now under The firehouse , I would do what we call repack. Basically what I did was repackage the inventory to make sure it was all set up when it got to the assembly line. Now my supervisor at this point in time was Roman Oskard, he was a very intense man at first. I got use to him and I enjoyed his work ethic. Things did not really go sour until Howards took over; ever since he and his assistant Marisol took over everything went south and what was once a team turned into a scattered group of individuals trying to figure out who their real friends are.

Howard was callous with an even more callous sense of humor. He always came down hard and condescending and the man could not even show up on time to save his life, that also goes for his buddy Marisol, they were definitely a pair that could not be separated. Similar to Roman and Darrel in that dynamic duo sense. Her on the other hand, she was only eye candy and hardly understanding. She would challenge anyone who would try to disrespect her intellectually, she did not even have to do that. I found out later on down the line that she was really close with the department's area manager. The problem with that connection (if not so apparent) is that if you give her a reason to, she could light a fire under your ass too quick.

remember her getting into it with Rojelio. I guess the story goes he screamed at her because she was on her high horse with the usual attitude, and he was NOT having it that day. It's one of Marisol's less interesting features, and then again someone's bad qualities are usually less interesting. I would not say she was arrogant, but she definitely felt entitled. However, who wouldn't when you're  fucking the supervisor. He was her baseline defense, but we all know she has the area manager in her pocket as well so we don't even bother. She gets her fair share of being made fun of when it came to her nasal high tone and mousey squeak, especially when she got mad. WE BEGGED for her to shut up most days and there's no other way to do that, then well....stay out of her way.

I often viewed Howard as a politician, because this was who the workers made him out to be, especially Leo, who was riding the first class train when it came to being on the wrong side of the team. He had a sense of humor and I guess that was favorable, but I never saw Howard as the joking type. When he did, it was cold and awkward. He was quick to beat his chest at work and that rubbed a lot of people the wrong way. I was confused about how casual he was being when it came down to the rumors of him cheating on his wife for the lead. I am quite sure it did bother him, but his exterior was pretty dense. It's when they took over the team is when I started landing myself in hot water. Marisol came on too strong and she was too frantic on her first day, she couldn't even bother to get my name right.

Trying to assert myself, I head over to Howard and I let him know about the inconvenience of my name (considering it happened twice). He explained to me that it was a simple mistake and he will fix the roster and he also told me to give her a chance before I decide to pass  judgment. Things were turning out fine until one day after  Marisol starts harassing me about my parts and the way I set up my station. I exchange a few words, and she gets the hint and backs off. It goes on like this for a few days. Sadly what I did not know was that it was going to affect where I go on the team. I did not realize the greatest mistake I made until they yanked me from my comfort zone into a war zone called zone 2. Once over there, I cried and I took a step back and opened my eyes. Now I was determined to get out of this mess!

TO BE CONTINUED.........                                                                                                                                                                          

Sunday, September 2, 2018

I take the "ILY" out of family pt 2: All tea all shade

Now I told you this was going to be a to be continued post didnt I? I know we had some some gaps and fillers in-between but where we left off was mom fiancé being hauled away in the back of a police car then I hit you with that big daunting to be continued cliche but anyways heres the second half to the tale.

Me and roiland are sitting in the car posted as we look through the rear view mirror. We see everyone standing outside in a panic and all I could see was my love crouching into the vehicle. Me and Roiland sat there talking as we waited silently in the dark. I was feeling empty on the side and I knew if I got out of the car I would have made situation worse. So I had to sit there and keep my cool as me and Roiland decidedly figured it out. Within minuets we see a cop making his way to the car and in a panic we stiff up and tried to air out the car just in case. I was definitely prepared to get another ticket for my tags but my first thought was they were going to get me on drugs and reckless driving.

The cop knocks on my window and explains to me what is going on with my fiancé. He also preceeds to tell me that my fiancé willingly got into the car. I look at him and because its 2018 I take his words with a grain of salt. The cop tells us to go home and that he had his phone and he will contact me when he gets to the see the doctor. I frantically start texting once the cops walks off and me and Roiland take off the other way. We land ourselves driving around town until Daniel lets me know he'sgoing to the local hospital inpatient psych ward so we speed off and make it there hoping he would get let out within the hour.

Me and Roiland pull up to the emergency room parking and we wait as I continue to get details from Daniel on the ongoing situation. He tells me all he needs is an evaluation and he should be good to come home, however none of us knew what that would take so we waited. Me and Roiland sat in the car and he let me vent about the whole situation. We smoked in-between and we kept level heads until we both got tired and started falling asleep (keep in mind it was 5am). We smoke a little bit and joke. I pass out and then wake up to a bright shining morning and people scattered about the parking lot. Daniel was still in and he wasn't getting out anytime soon it seemed like. 

I had to still get all of my stuff from Daniels place so he arranged that his family would give me some things. I bring Roiland along just in case. We pull up and everything seemed totally uniform he had let them know I had arrived so I continue on and I park and before im even done locking my phone I see his mom pull into the driveway as if she was about to catch her man sleeping around. Not sure what the commotion is about so I continue to sit there. She tried to verbalize something through the glass and confused me and Roiland sit there and look at her and then look at each other as if she had spoken some sort of foreign language to us. She didnt seem hostiles ok I let it be. 

Seconds later you see his sister slink her way out of the house. She dares not look in my direction, I continue not to care as I watch them drag bags and bags of my stuff from the RV sitting in the driveway. I can only hope to myself that they dont have rats and or destructive spiders of the sorts. I get an Idea that maybe I should go through the bags....well it wasn't really and idea it was more so of just my OCD kicking in so I figured better safe then another freak out moment. I get out of the car and I pull one of the bags out. Everything is going fine until I catch wind from one of them that cops are on the way. I was a little upset considering I wasn't acting out or anything, so in a panic I take one of the bags nod I dump it out (seems kind of dumb I know but when dealing with OCD you are going to have alot of these moments.

Roiland gets out with me and he does most of the talking, I hear nothing but whispers as I try to keep a mental note of what potentially might be missing. Roiland is picking everything up and putting in a bag as I stand there and watch my back. I guess you could say it was fair especially since I figured out I was being recorded. So this is what modern day racism feels like. I wanted to start giving off a list of things I was missing and the first thing I could thing of the cube to my charger, so I ask Roiland to ask them if they can retreive it for me. His sister slinks off back in to the house and theres an awkward silence outside as I let Roiland put the things in the car. Even he was in rush, cops \are no laughing matter.

His sister makes her way back to the house and gives Roiland my cube. They continued to stay where they were and whisper and giggle at me. It was like high school all over again. I kept my cool and proceeded on with things there was some back and forth banter as his mom tried walking in my direction. Startled I told her to back off, they of course got a kick out of that and proceeded to record and laugh. I could only imagine where the video ended up. Stood there for a second waiting to make sure I got everything but with 3 people rushing you to leave you kind of loose your train of thought. I finally came to and really soaked in how these lab rats were sizing me up. These were the popular girls that PEAKED and boy was it PATHETIC. 

I walk back around to the driver side and I get in I can feel the eyes ripping my skin off but I didnt care I wasn't going to stoop down to their level in any given way so I put my seatbelt on and searched for a song I could throw in their faces. I came across "Hi bich" by Danielle Bregoli aka Bhad Bhabie (I know feel free to crucify me but I have guilty pleasure damn it) I turned my phone up before I pressed play. I had Roiland in my ear but I zoned him out and I powered the car on. I had the windows down and as soon as the bridge hits I turn and I look at them through the window I smile and I wave at them "Hi bitch" I giggle as I whip the car and speed off like the asshole I am.

Laughing all the way there me and Roiland pull into the nearest Raleys and we hand out in the parking lot as I beat my chest in confidence. I let him know I couldn't be defeatedand that the whole situation bullshit and all will never really reach me and I think thats the best part. I wasn't really regretting anything.

Moral to the story: The same boiling water that softens the potato, hardens the egg its not the circumstances its what you're made of 

by the way theres more lol TO BE CONTINUED...

Thursday, August 30, 2018

Meet the author and Editor (UPDATED)

Andeigh and Rookie
Emilia and Tristan
Andeigh B.

Hello everyone! I just thought I'd share a couple of photos and share a little bit about myself.







My name is Andeigh (Andy) Im 26 years old, I have two kids and I use to work at Tesla, I love my work and I've been blacklisted. When Im not working im either on here keeping you guys up to date and posting new content or im out with my kids.

My hobbies include writing, dancing, and meditation, among other extracurricular activities. I have been writing ever since I could remember, so it's definitely another passion of mine. I am also a college student.     I've been studying for my degree in psychology. I was raised in Stockton, California and I hope to see the rest of the world! I also just want to add more thanks to everyone for supporting my blog. I dont know where this would be without you guys, thank you so much for the love. I can't wait to hear from you... :)

Tuesday, August 28, 2018

My journey into body mod pt 5: ADDITION

Well hello there everyone! I wanted to let you guys know that I got a new addition to my body modification. A few months ago I got another nose piercing, super excited! So far it's my easiest piercing, it did develop a piercing bump that I eradicated with tea tree oil. It worked wonders I had to clear the bump before I posted because you could not really see the piercing. It did scar a little bit, but overall it isn't giving me any trouble. What I will say is I absolutely love this piercing however it does close up increasingly fast once its taken out. Try to me mindful when you get a hoop I lost so many of and didnt even realize. I started loosening mine because my glasses kept snagging and circling out my nose ring but other then that this one is pretty great and its very easy to manage. I like nothing more then a piercing thats easier too manage. If anything changes I will be sure too keep you guys updated. This isnt the only addition. The other one that I have received a few months ago are my nipples. Now im not gonna post a pic of those but i will discuss them in great detail as best as i can as those have becomme a bit more tricky. I just wapped out my bars after 6 months. it didnt hurt it was very easy I had slight discomfort slididng it in as in if you don't line it upk right you start poking around in the hole and it becomes tender but yeah heres to more additions and subtractions :)

Thursday, August 23, 2018

Lost in the clouds



Some days she could breathe, and the world felt like it wasn't making sense. Other days, she had everything figured out and from one steady move to the next she felt like she could go anywhere.

She felt like her thoughts were limited, but not her dreams, so she pressed on hoping from moment to moment the was sheep jumped the gate when you ease yourself to sleep.

Everyday in life is an endless possibility and thats what she loved about it, she could eat sleep breathe and still intagible to the next soul.

It got lonely and the air got cold but she refused to come down off of the clouds she once called home. She found she stopped sleeping and started having lucid nightmares. She cant really remeber where she fell offf but she has yet to forget who she is.

After days and weeks of uncertainty she finally jumped off of one the clouds and landed in sorrow where she drowned by will so she can still search for that last shot happiness.

The worst part about it was that she couldnt find it even when she searched carelessly. She finally woke up and dried her eyes, she made one last attempt at the clouds but she leaped and she missed. 

For she wasnt sad and upset considering she landed in the stars and gathered all her hopes and dreams and she laid there and she counted the stars for she was finally happy with all of the choices she made in a blink of an eye.

Tuesday, August 21, 2018

I take the "ILY" out of family Pt 1.

One thing we can agree on is that relationships and family mix like oil and water. This latest narrative is roaming the realms of that very saying. I made it out alive and I swear I'm unscathed, but something deep down to the core is bothering me. Why can I not ever make it in a family setting? I guess the latestest POV will give you a bit more insight into what I mean.

Now lets rewind to the past for a second, where I started talking about comfort zones and family...etcetera. So keep that Idea going for a few months. The latest incident took flight with Daniel who is now my fiancé (later posts congratulations to me yada, yada). Now keep thinking back to the post on comfort zones where I talked about how introverted I am, and his family comes on strong and I cannot handle it. If it's not in there, then there you go. Now lets move a bit forward into the future.

The latest incident started off with my dog’s balls (not sure if I ever mentioned Kato). Now the balls themselves were not the initial issue. The issue started over miscommunication. Picture that this dog loses his balls, comes home and you're having a disscussion about having the puppy stay over a few days because his usual house was unavailable for a few hours. Naturally fiancé says yes, but only after he brings it up to his mother and sister. This is where the story really starts to take a turn. His sister comes home and confronts fiancé. I dash to the closet like I normally do, and I shove my head between the clothes as I pretend not to eavesdrop. At first, things were going well up until I realized that poor little kato was passed out on the floor nearly right infront of her eyes.

The panic didn't kick in until she promted to ask if the dog was occupying the residence. To which the fiancé freaks out and says no. As I fall out of the closet, next thing you know I'm being interrogated by my closet activites unto which I plead the fifth. Everything except me is fine in the closet. I knew that was not the pretense of her question, but I just wanted to get away. Now here is where it gets tricky, the original house is unavailable, but Kato cannot stay with fiancé, of course neither of us stopped the second thing from happening. So he swoops me up and kisses me and we head off to the gym. My instincs were not feeling too good, and I kept feeling like something bad was gonna happen by leaving kato, I tried to shake the feeling.

I guess it should have hit me when the fiancé is driving and trying to text like a madman. I kept trying to pry, but he kept reassuring me that everything was fine. So once again I brushed it off, up until we got there parked and spent a million hours in the car while he continues to type like a madman. Keep in mind that we had a guest in the backseat who was joining. I'm sitting there frustrated and I finally found myself snatching his phone only to find out that his family found out about Kato. Now we have one confused guest while the lover and I are panicking our asses off.

Fiancé decides to drop the idea entirely and still go into the gym. I tell his sister to just drop off the dog and that it would be fine. Unfortunately that was not the case. It was a screaming match and threats were being thrown about my animals being tied up on my front porch. We get into the car and we smash back to his place only to find out they finally carried out the bullshit deed, and all I could do is panic and cry as I raced around the neighborhood having a stage 5 meltdown (DEFCON 1). The anxiety kicked in worse when I finally stopped the car. I screamed at everything as my breakdown continued to rage on. 

Fiancé and Roiland had a hell of a time calming me down, but I finally pulled myself together. I drove back to the house. This time I had a mood shift, and I was feeling VERY angry. Who would displace my poor dog, who just got home from having his balls cut off. I was pretty heated at his sister. Combine problems from a having a stage 5 panic attack and you throw a mood shift in that. You definitely do not know who you are, and all you want to do is punch something. It took a lot for me to not get out of the car and freak out on her, and I had to pray for me to not do so. I rocked and I yelled, my fiancé and guest had to hold me back.

Things really took a shift when fiancé decided to get out of the car, and go talk to his evil witch of a sister. I was pretty hot, but I became pretty level headed. I told him he had to decide between his sister and me. Not in that sense, it was more of a, "Either you're gonna stay and talk or we are gonna go and rescue the animals." He stayed and that left me racing to the house to make sure everything was going to be okay. Once I pull up on the scene, I see my guinea pigs in front of the car and I see my poor whacked out dog tied to the pole. Roiland and I rush out of the car and quickly collect the pets and get them in the house while I'm on the phone arguing with his sister and up the stairs we went to let them rest. We leave the house and we rush back to my fiancé.

He had found himself tied up into something that got the police involved and all I could do is wait in the darkness of the car, and get my thoughts together. I definitely had to get them together, especially when I seen the love of my life in handcuffs being loaded into the back seat of a police SUV. 

TO BE CONTINUED..... 




Tuesday, August 14, 2018

"Dude wheres your car" [UPDATED]

Here I present you a more interesting topic (at least for the adults). The most interesting week of my life started with me getting my car repossessed. Oh yes! I never thought it would happen, but It did. Now heres the crazy tale behind that. 

It was early in the week, I had a few days off from work and I was spending it fooling around. I had finally gotten my second paycheck and I did the first thing any adult would do, and I paid the biggest bill I have-which as we all should know right now it's only my car. Still trying to follow that up with rent you know. Just a girl trying to grow up here or there, I guess. 
I want you guys to keep in mind that it was a couple of days late because I was waiting on my second paycheck. However I guess you could say it was my fault for being a social piece of shit, and not letting them know that they were going to have to wait a few days. I try my best to avoid moments like that, but here we go back to my life. I remember getting a million phone calls and voicemails not to mention they were calling my baby's daddy's father as well, feeeeeelll the cringe.

That isn't the worst part of the story though. Theres nothing worse than coming home on a Friday night, parking your car in the usual spot taking in the sights for a little bit before you creep into the house. Finally you get a moment to yourself to masturbate and become one with the YOUniverse. Next thing you know a relative comes home and wakes you up and asks where your car is. You wake up with confidence but when they point out to you the spot where your car should be, and how its not there. You jump up and freak out and all you could do was call 9-1-1. Who could've stolen your car in that short amount of time? 9-1-1 answers and in a panic you give them your information, as you try to keep your composure.

Sadly the officer gets back to you and lets you know that your car was repossessed, and that the information will be issued out tomorrow. You hold your head down and go to your room where you cry and try and call your bank and find out where they have taken your best friend to, and how much it cost to get him back. You lay there embarrassed as this might have completely stopped you from getting a new car from them. You are determined. You scrape up whatever little money you had left and you cash out your retirement as this is an emergency. You lay there in worry, once you fall asleep you wake up scurrying to your phone and you call the bank. They give you the info but its gonna take a few days. You're waiting and pacing trying to make sense of yourself. You walk down the street and get some air. 

Another day goes by and you call the bank; lucky for you they have the info, however now you have to catch a ride to go pick up the key and empty the car just in case.You take a nap before your ride gets here, you get your wits together and you haul ass to the bank to get your money and try to send a money order. Not the easiest thing in the world, but you get it done. Now it's a waiting game, you wait for the bank to call you to let you know they received the money. A few hours go by and you take a nap. Finally your phone rings and you rush to pick up,   "Your baby is ready for pick up." You catch a ride and you stumble into the office. She has the release papers ready and you sign them. You come out and walk through the gate, she slides you the key and you run to the car and now your whole life is back on track.

Moral of the story:   PAY YOUR BILLS !!!!!! 

Monday, August 13, 2018

Just a PSA

Hey All! How are we doing today? Fantastic I hope and I hope you all are having a great night. I am, as I sit here writing and trying to stalk Elon on twitter (Jk I LOVE YOU ELON!!!!!) Anyways enough of my shenanigans, I just wanted to thank you all for sticking with me through this weird journey and on top of that some of you really do get engaged in what I write and its amazing!! Greatest "from day one" fans I ever seen. Im just asking that you all bear with me at this time, I have new stuff in the works  as amazing and totally awesome as that is I want to really get this blog off of the ground.

So I just wanted to layout all of the new changes that will be taking place and I am also asking you all for your help, I need you all who really love my work to spread it to your friends, family, anyone who you feel could relate to this, all they have to do is subscribe (only if they truly enjoy such stuff). I am also doing my part with sharing my writing across social media but this is a group effort. I have hired an editor (editorialfriend95@gmail.com) contact page soon to come. Now with more time and focus I can be organized and can make this an even better experience. Also with that being said, I will only be posting twice a week as I have to balance work and school as well.

The next change that is going to take place will be next year (haven't set a date but its in the works). I will be turning Life out of order into a podcast!!!!!!! There will be more details on that, but I am definitely looking forward to what that has to offer and the last thing I want to go over is the Domain name. I know you guys have been getting to the website using www.experiencemylife.com I just want to let you guys know that the domain name will be changed and once I have it picked out and set up ( in a week or two I will definitely give you guys a heads up. I’m also currently trying to build my own website (easier said then done). These are just some new changes so posting will be put on hold for the next few days as I want to get a jumpstart onto these new projects. I hope you guys enjoy and once again thank you for the support.

Thursday, May 24, 2018

My journey into Body mod 4: Adding and subtracting

Hey everyone welcome! Today I want to announce that when it came to my piercings I had to subtract. The one that got ejected was my industrial, I will admit that was a tough piercing, I endured it as much as I could however I enjoyed it when I could. As you see below in the pictures I post my ear is healing and doing a lot better then usual, maybe that particular piercing didnt work for my ear and thats okay because I traded it in for a simple nostril piercing that compliments my septum. We will be documenting that and the new tattoo piece I got from Trevor last Wednesday! Oh boy what a ride!!




Ah yes there she goes this would be my fifth tattoo as done by Trevor Walsh at Emerald Tattoo swing by and say hello for me (maybe) anyways the piece is of a yin yang with mountains and clouds and it represents a place I find most peaceful. Very zen and very at piece. Im doing so good with this, and im staying on track. Oh did I fail to mention that this fucker hurts not as bad as the piece on my shoulder I think I forgot to post but anyways yeah.



Sunday, May 6, 2018

Edens garden of disaster

Hey we all remember the story of Adam and Eve right? We all remember how it all got fucked up in the garden of Eden. Okay keep that very tale in your head. You ever get confused if you were the apple or the snake? Turns out in this narrative I actually turned out to be each character (including the apple yes) however things go awry when it all starts catching to me, I guess I need to do better? Maybe some characters got what they deserved but I guess you will have to read on to make your choice.

Let us start the story off, right in the middle of me and Edens relationship, roughly towards the end when it kinda all started falling apart, I guess if you want a specific setting I could give you one. It is up to you to determine the overall importance. Anyways it all started with a birthday party for Edens youngest kid who I'd like to name Barry. Now keep in mind some of these events I wasn't aware of at the time. Like for example when meeting Edens friends at the party, a friend we shall call Manny now Manny was cool considering right after I went to work that day Eden cheated on me with this so called Manny but I guess that wasn't the worst part considering. What ensued prior to that knowledge?

So picture this one night I am at Kato (work) dilly dallying around and next thing you know Eden starts up with his useless arguments (he was quite infamous for that). It was already a hard night at work and I was kinda already fed up with him and on top of that, I was trying have a fling with the little trash boy outside. I didn't feel bad considering it felt like we were both done. Anyways where was I going with this? Oh yeah Eden was on his bullshit again  but who knew that was going to leave me single , which in the moment really bothered me but I was also relieved that the shit show had finally come to an end.

I leave work sick and I speed back to Edens just to collect my things, which he had already compiled once all that was said and done, it was a little crying charade but I packed all of my things and I got on the best I could. I had to admit I was sad, not because we broke up but because I had wasted so much time in an unhappy relationship or what I would like to call a "situationship" (yes people they do exist). It kinda sucked being alone at first you get so use to someone being there all the time but then you stop worrying about it and start moving on. I'm not proud of myself but after that initial break up I finally approached the trash boy and we groped each other behind the small tent of his workplace. Later that would turn out  into DBZ and cunnilingus.

I woke up on his bed then next morning feeling great and I got rid of all my pictures with Eden, at some point he tried to be my friend but it was embarrassing to watch especially to have to sit there and watch him build his new life with Manny. Yes kids they were moving fast and throwing it in my face, from the engagement, to planning the wedding, to a baby, and to moving out of state. I wanted all those things just not with Eden and I feel like I made a smart choice on that one, so it was weird to me to have Eden in my inbox every other day, it warlike he wouldn't go away and there was no escaping him. I just know all turmoil aside we found ourselves in a weird predicament. I just didn’t think that the next time he would end up in my inbox we would be having sex. I can’t say it ended blandly but he wound up leaving me for a shitty relationship full of secrets once again I felt like shit I had him and then I lost him. That wasn’t the worst feeling, the worst feeling was when he came back a second time but the next thing you know things turn from bad to worst. I finally got to spend time time with my replacement and boy was that awful, I felt like a sucky person each day. I was initially gonna tell her but it took Eden to swear me to secrecy. 

It isn’t enough when your guilty conscience is keeping you up at night, after that I pressed on and got myself into new and exciting adventures, I found myself moving on from Teagan and his wasted half life faster then ever expected but I was also keeping myself open just in case Daniel decided he was gonna show back up. I'm not saying he was taking too long but what I will say is that he's long over due. It was the best feeling in the world and I couldn't explain it. Now I'm going fast forward  *sorry for being iffy with the details). So we are gonna stop at the part where I landed myself at Edens to drop off some mail, this is where Manny comes into play.

The most unfortunate part about going there was that, I started to bond with Manny, it got bad to a point when Eden got home he was pretty mad at us both for some reason. That was the most awkward fight I have ever been in. However it left me with one conclusion. I had definitely dodged a bullet from that crazy fuck. After we got done throwing things at each other and them almost having pure un adulterated sex in front of me. I had a small talk about Eden with Manny by the car before I left and things were getting kind of deep, turns out she was sick of his shit as well. I got a big sigh of release on my way home as well.

Now let me fast forward you one more time, the more exciting part of this story is the part where I discuss mending a work and over a Marco Polo video, I finally get the confession from Eden that he cheated on me with Manny that day of the birthday party. I have to admit with Edens background it wasn't hard to believe and I wouldn't put it past him. I remember not feeling anything at first but that's how it always works, I don't feel anything then next thing you know I am feeling everything, and its absolutely wild. So at that stage there had been a lot of back and forth commentary between the two and I had found myself in the middle once again, I was trying to be the neutral party and try to be fair in all cases even though I didn't quite particularly agree.

All in all I just want to be honest and say, I just wanted to bang Manny. Me and Daniel were quite open in that sense, (another narrative for another week). She was fine and he had definitely upgraded, I have never wanted to see someone bend over in shorts so badly. Sorry if that's TMI, but this is an honest blog right? So anyways here I am trying to sweet talk Manny as Eden sits pissed in the background, I didn't care if he can fuck her so can I and I was on a mission. I knew it was fucked up and I started feeling like the snake that was lurking around when Eve committed the ultimate sin. I genuinely felt like they should break up and I kind of hinted at that from the get go but either of them weren't paying attention or so I thought.

Eden caught on and I didn't hear from him for awhile and it was kind of relieving until one night I receive a nasty text message from Eden telling me I need to keep my pussy in my pants and stop telling his girl to leave him. I guess the insult of me wanting to be with his girlfriend instead of Daniel really got to me and I will admit I got vindictive, what did I do you ask? IK think I did the most rational thing ever and I told his fiancé about everything even the most current time he tried to give me the D. I sent screenshots pictures and videos, I knew I was burning a bridge but that was it I got tired of Eden draining my life and I wanted to make sure after we stop talking I won't ever run into him again in this life.

We were on the phone my whole lunch break and it was pretty much a waste (sorry I care about my lunch break). It turns out Manny was a giant idiot and a victim at that, I was in the wrong for sleeping with her partner but she want wrong for sleeping with him when me and him were still in a relationship, that part angered me and out of retaliation I said some ugly things back at the both of them, and what I did know was that if any of us ever met each other again in this life it was gonna be a fight. Turns out everyone bit the apple all at once just to find a loophole, it didn't work. Everyone got evicted from the garden. I stopped feeling like an apple and started feeling like Karma.

Moral to the story: People will reap what they sow

Friday, May 4, 2018

Just an Honest post

Hello everyone, My name is Andeigh, I use to be called "Annie" but the kids at school use to get my name wrong but oddly enough I felt more comfortable running around as Andy as it felt more honest. I couldn't be "Andy" around my family because it wasn't very lady like and that wasn't my name, ever since then all I did was conform to it even though it lead me along down road of unhappiness .

Somewhere along the line I stumbled across an artist named Andy Warhol and ever since him and his art I had a completely new outlook on the name Andy, however that didn't stop my family from letting me be me. However I hurdled on and I kept on my way. From then on I learned I like heavy metal and long guitar solos, I guys in girl clothes and the rocky horror picture show. I expressed weird ideals and I had a lot of love for everyone in the world, I was discovering myself and I was into girls but also had to keep that a secret.

I was keeping up quite well, at least I thought I was. I was always feeling left out and I hadn't made very many friends who stayed around. Puberty was kicking in and next thing you know I'm meeting guys on the Internet to have conversation and I'm falling in love in the background. Family was a weird place but I am doing the best I can. I was keeping up in school and I had a pretty good outline of what I wanted to be when I grew up. I even had weird crazy innovative ideas but once again my family shot them down.

I couldn't dress how I wanted to dress or wear my hair the way I wanted to, I had to stay in the house and only got to play outside in secret. The only fun place to go was then movies but that got old really fast and I felt bad for my sister because I did. I was horny and learning real hard lessons at the time but I made it as fast as I could. The world was weird and I just wanted to see it. By then the world is falling apart and next thing you know we were moving and I was upset with a world being told without me being there. I kept moving forward and I grew even though I wasn't getting any taller and it was impressive if you ask me.

I didn't see myself go anywhere but up, I got myself in weird situations along the way and I came to learn what real human beings are, and that was a dire lesson indeed, Next thing you know I graduated From school and I was already out of the house making bad choices but I kept going for the better. Next thing you know I'm watching my family fall apart and form back together again, on the sidelines I was doing the best I could but I found myself in a hopeless relationship that would soon go bad to worst at a moments notice. However before that I was twirling around in infinite bliss and I kept moving forward the best I could.

Now I want you all to notice key things, a lot of this is focused on my desire to do what I could even if that only meant my best. Its very receptive and ugly I know, my ideals changed and I opened my eyes up to the world. I saw everything for what it was and all I could do was breathe in and keep my eyes open. I had a car and a shadow and that's all I needed to become one. It was a scary place out there but I was definitely satisfied with where everything was going.

It all came spiraling when it turned out I was pregnant with my first kid, onto of that the relationship was physically killing the both of us and it took this so called thing called "family" to pull me out of the situation. I felt so disconnected but they were there every step of the way and they were always there when I needed  rescuing. Although I still look back and still get sour at some of the things that went on I guess you could say that happy disposition is at a stand still and now im feeling more alone then ever but who's to say...This too shall pass.

Wednesday, May 2, 2018

All drugs and No sleep

Let me start off by saying the one week I had off from work and school was the most unproductive life changing experience Ive ever had. For one let me start by saying I apologize for what may seem like reckless behavior but we all do crazy things in life, and the weird this is I am saying like it was one of the most hardcore experiences you could have out here. Lets just say adulating got hard and now you have to make up for the time that you out because you had to spend most of it sleeping because you had gotten off the morning before. What can I say im young and im just trying to find out what works in this life I guess.

Let me take you back to a time where work and school was consuming my life, work consumed most of my time because I had to be there for 12hrs a day doing receptive work but I guess that is work no matter where you go. Anyways things like that just get old after awhile so with that being said let me take you down the road where I started getting high a lot more often so I could get a better perspective on things. Now thats not good when you are out spending half of your life with the human of your dreams (yes me and Daniel have been spending quite a bit of time together and now things seem more normal and calmed down if you ask me). Day by day we have our struggles and I guess that is no reason to blame anyone but what can you say?

The only other problem with that I was spending less time with one of my other closer friends and that seemed to sort of hurt the relationship but thats okay because what I learned in this life is that things can bounce back and that you shouldn't dwell or stress upon the situation and thats where I thought me and this closer friend of mine were headed but it would turn out bad all the time and not to mention I was eating too many food stuff at the time. (Found  some great places in the Bay Area and even closer to home if anyone wants to know feel free to shit me an e-mail and I will get back to you with all the info of these places).

Did I also fail to mention the I was having a lot of sex in the backseat of my car? Not too be so TMI but lets just say Daniels stroke game is so good he fucks me like he wants to put a baby in me. Okay anyways lets get back on track. Believe it or not it was the best the I've had in a crazy long time. Once again thats besides the point but what I will say is that all these new experiences and this new lifestyle really had me seeing life in a different format if you will. It was feeling great aside from the fact that something was keeping me up late into the night and I guess you could say that was the unfortunate part. Considering I already am an insomniac.

It really felt like I was on what seems like a week long drug binge and I guess you could kinda say thats what it was but I was dabbling with art and new foods to make it a drug only focused thing. Several changes were made in the process. Me and Daniel were back together so we were spending time in the background and that was the best part staying up all night with him, sitting int backseat talking and on occasion having sex. Sometimes we sat in the front seat and we watched movies and took weird trips if you will. I wasn't missing the heartbreak Eden left me with or the other non-sesqe that comes with the forgotten lovers of the relationship sea. I dont want to find myself into any other weird predicament, I was better off this way then I was with Jake and I take great solace in that.

The best part about these late night binges was that I could find myself towards the end of the day even if I was still coming the house around 4am. I wasn't sorry about anything anymore, I felt really sad but really alive at the same time I was still crying everyday but I still found time to give myself orgasms under the stars. Thats another narrative for another time. On the flip side waking up mid afternoon with a hangover high was quite complicated and I couldn't find myself mid day but I was waiting for the night to fall so once again I could re emerge into the strange world where my thoughts play out before me.

Some days were harder then others but I took it easy as much as I could, however the nightmares I was having were starting to become more and more more and soon I found myself in a lucid sleep state like I always am and it was from that point on that I had to learn how to take a break and not got so hard in my recreational activities. One day I stopped and looked up at the sky and then I went into the house and painted something beautiful. So I guess it wasn't a total fail but on top of that I was letting relationships behind the scene. It was kinda like Ik wasn't human life anymore it was like everything was dead, and that the only viable thing in this existence that I could be sure of. Was my love for Daniel. Even though we questioned it a lot. 

The time was m oving faster and faster and I couldn't stop it. However at the same time it wasn't moving fast enough and I hated but I didnt know what to do with myself any further. So after fucking Daniel the backseat one last time, I toned it down and I took a breath and a nice long nap and I learned to do nothing with my life and my timr=


Monday, April 30, 2018

My Journey into Body mod pt 3.

This is just a gallery of the new tattoos I have received since my first one!!! Enjoy














                      







Saturday, April 28, 2018

Can we say third times a charm?

The greatest moment in history I have to say has happened to me and its the most incredible experience I could have imagined. I didn't see it coming and I guess that was the scary part all I am gonna say is. If you haven't read "First love but no last love" please go read that post first so you can fully understand who I am talking about and it gives you more insight into this new situation. All I can say is I am definitely happy now and that's the best part about it.

Well those of you who read the first part know about Daniel and our background and that should make this post seem a bit more intimate. Well It all started off with a simple text. Him initiating a hangout, and it was so intense. All I remember thinking was how this is going to feel in the next few months or so. Or what it was gonna feel like if he left this time around and how bad that was gonna hurt  considering the first few times he left he hurt deeper wounds than imagined but I guess that's where we leave that because we are onto more positive things.

I remember getting the text and once again being on cloud nine. That made me kinda clam up though and almost freak out but I breathed and I brought myself back to planet earth. It was wild especially the first time he into the car with me, go he looked absolutely amazing but he didn't really age too much but he does have a baby face I guess that doesn't really matter either. I couldn't really compose myself, especially since he was taking me out on a date. We went for Mexican food and I had to bring one of my midgets. Which was fine with him but the problem was that I was spending so much time on the midgets that I wasn't really giving him enough time.

I didn't think it was gonna go any farther then that to be honest, but it didn't stop from him taking my breathe away every time he touched me. He was just as soft as I remember him and I guess there's the nostalgia in that. It was amazing and I didn't really see myself out there without him. I didn't know where he stood so I didn't want to bring up old feelings. However but I knew he was just in love with me as I was with him and we really emerged greater people. there were points where he could see right through me. Seeing my soul for what it was and it shook me  to the very core.

Some nights I thought I could feel him next to me and all I did was dream about him. However we weren't really ready to jump into anything and make a scene right then and there? I still ask myself but after spending time in the backseat and seeing the world with him everything felt right, but it took a couple  of hangouts for us to realize where we wanted to be and he made that clear when we had a short conversation after sushi about the father to my kids. It turns out that the reason he hadn't scooped me up sooner he didn't want any disrespect between my ex and his family. Well that wasn't necessarily a thing but I remember he grabbed my hand and gave it a kiss.

It was at that moment that he decided and I decided that we were ready to become a thing for a final time and hopefully it would work out. The scenario was so wild and it still tickles my soul everyday but we were so in love and obsessed with each other it was magical and I wouldn't trade it for then world. Now we go out often and we talk about everything imaginable and we lose each other and find each other in the best way possible.
I still nearly drown in his ocean blue eyes but I guess that's my fault I still regret not spending enough time with him the first time we hung out that I am learning how to make up for it.

Now in the last post I talked about a party. That was a family hangout and it was great, he nurtured me the best he could and he also showed me all these fun things and even when I'm mad at him he still lays next to me as close as he can even if I don't want to be touched and its what I imagine heaven feels likened his voice is what I image heaven sounds like. Its so crazy how we have gotten this far and I never thought it could be but the craziest things happen during the best time. Im trying to teach him how to love himself and so far it seems like it could all work out

Moral of the story, first time Love always can come back to you. Its a powerful but it doesn't happen to everyone and the ones it does happen for indulge in it and embrace the magic the comes with it.