The greatest moment in history I have to say has happened to me and its the most incredible experience I could have imagined. I didn't see it coming and I guess that was the scary part all I am gonna say is. If you haven't read "First love but no last love" please go read that post first so you can fully understand who I am talking about and it gives you more insight into this new situation. All I can say is I am definitely happy now and that's the best part about it.
Well those of you who read the first part know about Daniel and our background and that should make this post seem a bit more intimate. Well It all started off with a simple text. Him initiating a hangout, and it was so intense. All I remember thinking was how this is going to feel in the next few months or so. Or what it was gonna feel like if he left this time around and how bad that was gonna hurt considering the first few times he left he hurt deeper wounds than imagined but I guess that's where we leave that because we are onto more positive things.
I remember getting the text and once again being on cloud nine. That made me kinda clam up though and almost freak out but I breathed and I brought myself back to planet earth. It was wild especially the first time he into the car with me, go he looked absolutely amazing but he didn't really age too much but he does have a baby face I guess that doesn't really matter either. I couldn't really compose myself, especially since he was taking me out on a date. We went for Mexican food and I had to bring one of my midgets. Which was fine with him but the problem was that I was spending so much time on the midgets that I wasn't really giving him enough time.
I didn't think it was gonna go any farther then that to be honest, but it didn't stop from him taking my breathe away every time he touched me. He was just as soft as I remember him and I guess there's the nostalgia in that. It was amazing and I didn't really see myself out there without him. I didn't know where he stood so I didn't want to bring up old feelings. However but I knew he was just in love with me as I was with him and we really emerged greater people. there were points where he could see right through me. Seeing my soul for what it was and it shook me to the very core.
Some nights I thought I could feel him next to me and all I did was dream about him. However we weren't really ready to jump into anything and make a scene right then and there? I still ask myself but after spending time in the backseat and seeing the world with him everything felt right, but it took a couple of hangouts for us to realize where we wanted to be and he made that clear when we had a short conversation after sushi about the father to my kids. It turns out that the reason he hadn't scooped me up sooner he didn't want any disrespect between my ex and his family. Well that wasn't necessarily a thing but I remember he grabbed my hand and gave it a kiss.
It was at that moment that he decided and I decided that we were ready to become a thing for a final time and hopefully it would work out. The scenario was so wild and it still tickles my soul everyday but we were so in love and obsessed with each other it was magical and I wouldn't trade it for then world. Now we go out often and we talk about everything imaginable and we lose each other and find each other in the best way possible.
I still nearly drown in his ocean blue eyes but I guess that's my fault I still regret not spending enough time with him the first time we hung out that I am learning how to make up for it.
Now in the last post I talked about a party. That was a family hangout and it was great, he nurtured me the best he could and he also showed me all these fun things and even when I'm mad at him he still lays next to me as close as he can even if I don't want to be touched and its what I imagine heaven feels likened his voice is what I image heaven sounds like. Its so crazy how we have gotten this far and I never thought it could be but the craziest things happen during the best time. Im trying to teach him how to love himself and so far it seems like it could all work out
Moral of the story, first time Love always can come back to you. Its a powerful but it doesn't happen to everyone and the ones it does happen for indulge in it and embrace the magic the comes with it.
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