My journey into Body mod 4: Adding and subtracting

Hey everyone welcome! Today I want to announce that when it came to my piercings I had to subtract. The one that got ejected was my industrial, I will admit that was a tough piercing, I endured it as much as I could however I enjoyed it when I could. As you see below in the pictures I post my ear is healing and doing a lot better then usual, maybe that particular piercing didnt work for my ear and thats okay because I traded it in for a simple nostril piercing that compliments my septum. We will be documenting that and the new tattoo piece I got from Trevor last Wednesday! Oh boy what a ride!!

Ah yes there she goes this would be my fifth tattoo as done by Trevor Walsh at Emerald Tattoo swing by and say hello for me (maybe) anyways the piece is of a yin yang with mountains and clouds and it represents a place I find most peaceful. Very zen and very at piece. Im doing so good with this, and im staying on track. Oh did I fail to mention that this fucker hurts not as bad as the piece on my shoulder I think I forgot to post but anyways yeah.

Edens garden of disaster

Hey we all remember the story of Adam and Eve right? We all remember how it all got fucked up in the garden of Eden. Okay keep that very tale in your head. You ever get confused if you were the apple or the snake? Turns out in this narrative I actually turned out to be each character (including the apple yes) however things go awry when it all starts catching to me, I guess I need to do better? Maybe some characters got what they deserved but I guess you will have to read on to make your choice.

Let us start the story off, right in the middle of me and Edens relationship, roughly towards the end when it kinda all started falling apart, I guess if you want a specific setting I could give you one. It is up to you to determine the overall importance. Anyways it all started with a birthday party for Edens youngest kid who I'd like to name Barry. Now keep in mind some of these events I wasn't aware of at the time. Like for example when meeting Edens friends at the party, a friend we shall call Manny now Manny was cool considering right after I went to work that day Eden cheated on me with this so called Manny but I guess that wasn't the worst part considering. What ensued prior to that knowledge?

So picture this one night I am at Kato (work) dilly dallying around and next thing you know Eden starts up with his useless arguments (he was quite infamous for that). It was already a hard night at work and I was kinda already fed up with him and on top of that, I was trying have a fling with the little trash boy outside. I didn't feel bad considering it felt like we were both done. Anyways where was I going with this? Oh yeah Eden was on his bullshit again  but who knew that was going to leave me single , which in the moment really bothered me but I was also relieved that the shit show had finally come to an end.

I leave work sick and I speed back to Edens just to collect my things, which he had already compiled once all that was said and done, it was a little crying charade but I packed all of my things and I got on the best I could. I had to admit I was sad, not because we broke up but because I had wasted so much time in an unhappy relationship or what I would like to call a "situationship" (yes people they do exist). It kinda sucked being alone at first you get so use to someone being there all the time but then you stop worrying about it and start moving on. I'm not proud of myself but after that initial break up I finally approached the trash boy and we groped each other behind the small tent of his workplace. Later that would turn out  into DBZ and cunnilingus.

I woke up on his bed then next morning feeling great and I got rid of all my pictures with Eden, at some point he tried to be my friend but it was embarrassing to watch especially to have to sit there and watch him build his new life with Manny. Yes kids they were moving fast and throwing it in my face, from the engagement, to planning the wedding, to a baby, and to moving out of state. I wanted all those things just not with Eden and I feel like I made a smart choice on that one, so it was weird to me to have Eden in my inbox every other day, it warlike he wouldn't go away and there was no escaping him. I just know all turmoil aside we found ourselves in a weird predicament. I just didn’t think that the next time he would end up in my inbox we would be having sex. I can’t say it ended blandly but he wound up leaving me for a shitty relationship full of secrets once again I felt like shit I had him and then I lost him. That wasn’t the worst feeling, the worst feeling was when he came back a second time but the next thing you know things turn from bad to worst. I finally got to spend time time with my replacement and boy was that awful, I felt like a sucky person each day. I was initially gonna tell her but it took Eden to swear me to secrecy. 

It isn’t enough when your guilty conscience is keeping you up at night, after that I pressed on and got myself into new and exciting adventures, I found myself moving on from Teagan and his wasted half life faster then ever expected but I was also keeping myself open just in case Daniel decided he was gonna show back up. I'm not saying he was taking too long but what I will say is that he's long over due. It was the best feeling in the world and I couldn't explain it. Now I'm going fast forward  *sorry for being iffy with the details). So we are gonna stop at the part where I landed myself at Edens to drop off some mail, this is where Manny comes into play.

The most unfortunate part about going there was that, I started to bond with Manny, it got bad to a point when Eden got home he was pretty mad at us both for some reason. That was the most awkward fight I have ever been in. However it left me with one conclusion. I had definitely dodged a bullet from that crazy fuck. After we got done throwing things at each other and them almost having pure un adulterated sex in front of me. I had a small talk about Eden with Manny by the car before I left and things were getting kind of deep, turns out she was sick of his shit as well. I got a big sigh of release on my way home as well.

Now let me fast forward you one more time, the more exciting part of this story is the part where I discuss mending a work and over a Marco Polo video, I finally get the confession from Eden that he cheated on me with Manny that day of the birthday party. I have to admit with Edens background it wasn't hard to believe and I wouldn't put it past him. I remember not feeling anything at first but that's how it always works, I don't feel anything then next thing you know I am feeling everything, and its absolutely wild. So at that stage there had been a lot of back and forth commentary between the two and I had found myself in the middle once again, I was trying to be the neutral party and try to be fair in all cases even though I didn't quite particularly agree.

All in all I just want to be honest and say, I just wanted to bang Manny. Me and Daniel were quite open in that sense, (another narrative for another week). She was fine and he had definitely upgraded, I have never wanted to see someone bend over in shorts so badly. Sorry if that's TMI, but this is an honest blog right? So anyways here I am trying to sweet talk Manny as Eden sits pissed in the background, I didn't care if he can fuck her so can I and I was on a mission. I knew it was fucked up and I started feeling like the snake that was lurking around when Eve committed the ultimate sin. I genuinely felt like they should break up and I kind of hinted at that from the get go but either of them weren't paying attention or so I thought.

Eden caught on and I didn't hear from him for awhile and it was kind of relieving until one night I receive a nasty text message from Eden telling me I need to keep my pussy in my pants and stop telling his girl to leave him. I guess the insult of me wanting to be with his girlfriend instead of Daniel really got to me and I will admit I got vindictive, what did I do you ask? IK think I did the most rational thing ever and I told his fiancé about everything even the most current time he tried to give me the D. I sent screenshots pictures and videos, I knew I was burning a bridge but that was it I got tired of Eden draining my life and I wanted to make sure after we stop talking I won't ever run into him again in this life.

We were on the phone my whole lunch break and it was pretty much a waste (sorry I care about my lunch break). It turns out Manny was a giant idiot and a victim at that, I was in the wrong for sleeping with her partner but she want wrong for sleeping with him when me and him were still in a relationship, that part angered me and out of retaliation I said some ugly things back at the both of them, and what I did know was that if any of us ever met each other again in this life it was gonna be a fight. Turns out everyone bit the apple all at once just to find a loophole, it didn't work. Everyone got evicted from the garden. I stopped feeling like an apple and started feeling like Karma.

Moral to the story: People will reap what they sow

Just an Honest post

Hello everyone, My name is Andeigh, I use to be called "Annie" but the kids at school use to get my name wrong but oddly enough I felt more comfortable running around as Andy as it felt more honest. I couldn't be "Andy" around my family because it wasn't very lady like and that wasn't my name, ever since then all I did was conform to it even though it lead me along down road of unhappiness .

Somewhere along the line I stumbled across an artist named Andy Warhol and ever since him and his art I had a completely new outlook on the name Andy, however that didn't stop my family from letting me be me. However I hurdled on and I kept on my way. From then on I learned I like heavy metal and long guitar solos, I guys in girl clothes and the rocky horror picture show. I expressed weird ideals and I had a lot of love for everyone in the world, I was discovering myself and I was into girls but also had to keep that a secret.

I was keeping up quite well, at least I thought I was. I was always feeling left out and I hadn't made very many friends who stayed around. Puberty was kicking in and next thing you know I'm meeting guys on the Internet to have conversation and I'm falling in love in the background. Family was a weird place but I am doing the best I can. I was keeping up in school and I had a pretty good outline of what I wanted to be when I grew up. I even had weird crazy innovative ideas but once again my family shot them down.

I couldn't dress how I wanted to dress or wear my hair the way I wanted to, I had to stay in the house and only got to play outside in secret. The only fun place to go was then movies but that got old really fast and I felt bad for my sister because I did. I was horny and learning real hard lessons at the time but I made it as fast as I could. The world was weird and I just wanted to see it. By then the world is falling apart and next thing you know we were moving and I was upset with a world being told without me being there. I kept moving forward and I grew even though I wasn't getting any taller and it was impressive if you ask me.

I didn't see myself go anywhere but up, I got myself in weird situations along the way and I came to learn what real human beings are, and that was a dire lesson indeed, Next thing you know I graduated From school and I was already out of the house making bad choices but I kept going for the better. Next thing you know I'm watching my family fall apart and form back together again, on the sidelines I was doing the best I could but I found myself in a hopeless relationship that would soon go bad to worst at a moments notice. However before that I was twirling around in infinite bliss and I kept moving forward the best I could.

Now I want you all to notice key things, a lot of this is focused on my desire to do what I could even if that only meant my best. Its very receptive and ugly I know, my ideals changed and I opened my eyes up to the world. I saw everything for what it was and all I could do was breathe in and keep my eyes open. I had a car and a shadow and that's all I needed to become one. It was a scary place out there but I was definitely satisfied with where everything was going.

It all came spiraling when it turned out I was pregnant with my first kid, onto of that the relationship was physically killing the both of us and it took this so called thing called "family" to pull me out of the situation. I felt so disconnected but they were there every step of the way and they were always there when I needed  rescuing. Although I still look back and still get sour at some of the things that went on I guess you could say that happy disposition is at a stand still and now im feeling more alone then ever but who's to say...This too shall pass.

All drugs and No sleep

Let me start off by saying the one week I had off from work and school was the most unproductive life changing experience Ive ever had. For one let me start by saying I apologize for what may seem like reckless behavior but we all do crazy things in life, and the weird this is I am saying like it was one of the most hardcore experiences you could have out here. Lets just say adulating got hard and now you have to make up for the time that you out because you had to spend most of it sleeping because you had gotten off the morning before. What can I say im young and im just trying to find out what works in this life I guess.

Let me take you back to a time where work and school was consuming my life, work consumed most of my time because I had to be there for 12hrs a day doing receptive work but I guess that is work no matter where you go. Anyways things like that just get old after awhile so with that being said let me take you down the road where I started getting high a lot more often so I could get a better perspective on things. Now thats not good when you are out spending half of your life with the human of your dreams (yes me and Daniel have been spending quite a bit of time together and now things seem more normal and calmed down if you ask me). Day by day we have our struggles and I guess that is no reason to blame anyone but what can you say?

The only other problem with that I was spending less time with one of my other closer friends and that seemed to sort of hurt the relationship but thats okay because what I learned in this life is that things can bounce back and that you shouldn't dwell or stress upon the situation and thats where I thought me and this closer friend of mine were headed but it would turn out bad all the time and not to mention I was eating too many food stuff at the time. (Found  some great places in the Bay Area and even closer to home if anyone wants to know feel free to shit me an e-mail and I will get back to you with all the info of these places).

Did I also fail to mention the I was having a lot of sex in the backseat of my car? Not too be so TMI but lets just say Daniels stroke game is so good he fucks me like he wants to put a baby in me. Okay anyways lets get back on track. Believe it or not it was the best the I've had in a crazy long time. Once again thats besides the point but what I will say is that all these new experiences and this new lifestyle really had me seeing life in a different format if you will. It was feeling great aside from the fact that something was keeping me up late into the night and I guess you could say that was the unfortunate part. Considering I already am an insomniac.

It really felt like I was on what seems like a week long drug binge and I guess you could kinda say thats what it was but I was dabbling with art and new foods to make it a drug only focused thing. Several changes were made in the process. Me and Daniel were back together so we were spending time in the background and that was the best part staying up all night with him, sitting int backseat talking and on occasion having sex. Sometimes we sat in the front seat and we watched movies and took weird trips if you will. I wasn't missing the heartbreak Eden left me with or the other non-sesqe that comes with the forgotten lovers of the relationship sea. I dont want to find myself into any other weird predicament, I was better off this way then I was with Jake and I take great solace in that.

The best part about these late night binges was that I could find myself towards the end of the day even if I was still coming the house around 4am. I wasn't sorry about anything anymore, I felt really sad but really alive at the same time I was still crying everyday but I still found time to give myself orgasms under the stars. Thats another narrative for another time. On the flip side waking up mid afternoon with a hangover high was quite complicated and I couldn't find myself mid day but I was waiting for the night to fall so once again I could re emerge into the strange world where my thoughts play out before me.

Some days were harder then others but I took it easy as much as I could, however the nightmares I was having were starting to become more and more more and soon I found myself in a lucid sleep state like I always am and it was from that point on that I had to learn how to take a break and not got so hard in my recreational activities. One day I stopped and looked up at the sky and then I went into the house and painted something beautiful. So I guess it wasn't a total fail but on top of that I was letting relationships behind the scene. It was kinda like Ik wasn't human life anymore it was like everything was dead, and that the only viable thing in this existence that I could be sure of. Was my love for Daniel. Even though we questioned it a lot. 

The time was m oving faster and faster and I couldn't stop it. However at the same time it wasn't moving fast enough and I hated but I didnt know what to do with myself any further. So after fucking Daniel the backseat one last time, I toned it down and I took a breath and a nice long nap and I learned to do nothing with my life and my timr=