happy new year! Lets start there 💚
Being gone for so long you almost forget where to begin. I wanted to take some time out to catch up because I FEEL WE (as in me and you as an audience) don't exactly know each other. So no better way to catch up then to start giving you a little bit of background of where Im at in life. From there we will proceed on with other things. So here's to getting off on a good foot, I would like to add that there is no disclosure notice I am only talking about things that are purely within my immediate life.
Okay first to everyone new here my name is Andeigh i'm 27 and I spend a lot of my time trying to figure out where I belong in life like the rest of us. I spend all day dancing and trying to figure why people are shitty in the workplace. I sleep on a couch and my dog is my counselor. I dont have many friends because they dont share the sea obsessive interests that In do. I dont take myself too seriously and I do aver two kids and I pride myself in being the most non traditional parent. Im an art enthusiast and I don't always look on the bright side of life but thats to be expected. I'm a Pisces if that ever really mattered but to some people it does but I have gotten great reviews none the less. My hairs is always full of color and I'm the happiest piece of shit that I've been in a long time. It feels nice not making the understatement of the year.
But enough about me what about you? How are you? How are things going? I know you aren't suppose to start a sentence off with but, but this is my blog and I can do whatever I want and around here we spend a lot of time breaking all of the rules. For example: I just quit my full time job to pursue a a potential career in behavioral sciences. Ive decided that it was best not to be a full time worker and that it was time to become a full time student and I can honestly say it was the best choice Ive made so far. Believe it or not that particular choice has gotten me a lot of backlash, some people couldn't grasp the concept that I am a horrible worker and a much better thinker. I do though still understand the perspective, some people can't just make a move that steep and still make it out in the end and thats okay. No offense to anyone who decides to go the other way but it still isn't fair that opposite perspective isn't respected.
To some people thats not really a rule breaker but in a world where "all minds think alike" a different perspective isn't all that refreshing. How about you? Are you comfortable with your life and the choices that you made to get where you are? I mean I don't mean to pry but I am just curious. I wish someone had asked me that very same question long ago. I dint particularly have an answer because at the time I didn't really give it any thought. I substantiated the answer to the question by being naive and lying to myself and I don't want that to happen to any of my other counter parts. Some choices I'm happy with others I would change but over all Im happy with the final product and that within itself reminds me that nothing should count more than that.
While I was out I learned quite a few things about myself an others and it I spent a whole year just on self reflection and it was the best thing I could have ever done for myself and my mental health. I finally learned that I don't have to be anything in this life that I don't want to be and that I don't have to be bound by the same constructs as others. Life feels like abs illusion and it never felt like I was actually being my full and authentic self. I felt trapped by all the rules they lie out for you. From day one they are telling you who you should be and how to be it and if you tried to bend that mold the world wouldn't accept you in any way. Well quite frankly I am tired of following the same rules day in and day out, we have been doing it for decades.
Its a sense of restlessness, I guess you could say...This very same restlessness that I feel in my heart and soul is draining. I keep searching for the unknown cure but I don't think there is one. I think the only left to do is just stop and start giving my own way, living within the rules while making my own rules. Don't you feel the same way? Don't you feel like since day 1 when they laid out the rules of who you should be in a society that "wouldn't accept you if you were different", didn't make sense from day 1? I know we are different and we all don't think the same and that some of us are fine with playing by the rules and being whatever they tell us to be, thats perfectly fine and will always be okay. I still have to remember though that the sentiment won't be shared and the I'm going to constantly be looked down on for not playing the game they wanted me to play.
As each day goes on I take it all in stride, as should you. I know this was a lot to take in but this is the welcome Im extending and I'm so happy to have you here. Life is out of order but we can change that with a little perspective ❤️
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