Wednesday, January 26, 2022

Dirty Laundy anyone?

 Fairly interesting post this is going to be as usual the legal disclosure still applies.

While I was out hopping around and experimenting with different industries, I stubbed across a rather modest job. Though it wasn't really that modest and I kind of already knew of the place as my boyfriend used to be employed there but he never really worked the warehouse he was a delivery driver so thats what made the difference. I gave it a shot because it was something new and the only thing I truly knew of when it came to laundry was washing my clothes at home. This was the same thing except in a more industrial level and the type of laundry was hospital laundry. Little place in Manteca doing big work. The pay was low but I figured Id still try it out. I wanted to try the whole "pay doesn't matter its about how you spend your money". It worked for a while till I really started my job I was looking at the most gruesome things and even though I dint have a weak stomach and I have worked in a hospital type of setting it really wasn't that bad compared to what it could've been if I didn't already have that lead way.

feel like I needed more then 15.80 if I'm sorting heavily soiled laundry. Not too mention we are in the middle of a pandemic so the volume was crazy. Another thing the rules were pretty rigid they didn't give you any room to be a bad worker and I think thats due to a micromanaging corporate system. For example you couldn't be anymore then 2 min late coming back and when break was over you have someone in there watching to make sure everyone leaves at the same time. It felt as if even though you were late taking a break your still had to cut it short just keep up with everyone else. They wanted everyone in unison It made you feel like you couldn't even take a bathroom break, that ifs you left something behind you couldn't got get it without risking being late. There were eyes everywhere and its like if you stopped working no matter the manager was he would come and coach you. It was pretty annoying sometimes it doesn't matter how nice you are, the frequency of how often you are appearing for what reasons is frustrating.

The scheduling was also a little strange in my personal opinion.Theres only two shifts morning and swing, but they work you 12hrs sometimes 10 if they have enough people and the workload isn't that heavy. That also depends on what side you come from if that makes sense. So if you worked the clean side you got off earlier, its that type of thing. Overall the work wasn't too bad. I did wish there was more to it and there     was more of a challenge but it wasn't, all we did was sort and Like I said it became monotonous. The people are an entirely different story, the audience was older and there weren't too many youngsters like myself everyone I met was at least 40 and up. The youngest person that I met she was 22 and it was refreshing sometime to have someone you can talk to but she worked the morning shift so we didn't see too much of each other. I also had the luxury of meeting her mother. Both were very nice and definitely enjoyed the work. That energy I didn't mind.

Now not everyone was nice of course there a couple of people who were dead set on making sure I had the most annoying day possible. It didn't help that I was trying to be the very nice coworker who worked hard but kept to herself. So I wasn't trying to make waves and be on bad terms with anyone. I was trying to make this different from all of my other jobs. However there were people like Alice...people who worked hard, who were social and management favored. She started off friendly but over time I noticed a change, she would size me up every time she saw me and when she would talk to me I could see through the fake smile on her face. She left the worst items to me and when it came time to her needing help, she was always so quick to walk away when I got there, but when it came too others she would talk to them. A lot of the time she left to go to the floor to sweep up the mess and to collect the items that didn't make it into the bags and to collects the carts that were fulls and replace them.

Didn't seem like much but when there's someone already down there doing it she would still go down there and she would strike up a conversation leaving the rest of us to do the harder and more gross work.  It was pretty frustrating because we worked on a conveyor and sow we had to air the laundry before it reached the end of the line and it ended top in the trash. Sometimes it happened and sometimes they would fish it out of the trash but most times they didn't. It was based on what type of mistake you were making. Most of time we would throw away the things that were way too soiled to be washed. My point is that she would leave at the absolute worst times and when it came to us getting overwhelmed she would kind of just stand there. You can put together where that type of thing is frustrating. 

Another individual who tried to make it a harsher experience, for now we will call this person Rosalinda, Rosalinda was in the upper middle ages and she had a good group of friends and she was very good at her job. Too bad she found me to be the most annoying person on the planet and after working with her for a few days I seen a drastic change in her body language. She wouldn't really talk to me and the only time she did it     was to scold me when I dint sort something the right way. I noticed she wasn't like this with anyone else ad I didn't know what to do. I was as friendly as I could be too her and thats because I dont argue with older women. I truly feel lie there's no point too. I just let them have it their way and I let them think they're winning. The purpose of this post isn't to slander anyone its to show how coo workers can make it hard in the workplace just as much as anything else and I wanted to shine some light on it.

I thin k the most inqsteresting person I met was the Janitor, he had a cool vibe he was like Lenny Kravitz mixed with Bob Marley. He was surely eccentric and lovable. He was the one who pointed out to me that there weren't many black people who worked fir the company and it explains why he latched on to me so quickly. I was working around the holidays so it was a lot of family talk. He even got me a lunch box. I didn't get him anything back but he didn't want anything. He also made sure I Packed a good lunch and that I had someone to talk to whenever we had the same break. He was my first real friend in the workplace. ut over time things got distant. I guess corporate noticed how friendly we were and somehow we weren't talking the same breaks anymore and the only time we had to talk was in passing. It was quite unfortunate. He was nice enough to get me a lunch box for Christmas, pretty dope.

I would definitely say that this was the most unproblematic job that Ive had in a while and I wanted to get the lighter stuff  out of the way. One highlight was that I did manage to meet 2 really cool people before I made my exit. They were a black couple we will call them Rhonda and Sean. They were nice and we all connected really quick, and they too pointed out to me that there weren't too many other black people. They also touched on how they were treated a certain way a lot of the time. I was a witness to that, every time me and Rhoinda were on the clean side pillow sheets it was like the supervisor would pop out of nowhere and too tell us to make sure we keep up with production. Me and Rhonda were relatively fast so HIS POINT really heals no weight to the both of us. We were directly next to each other and we always had plenty of work laid out before us so there wasn't really a delay. Plus what made him kind of questionable to the both of us, when he pulls out a group picture of his friends. 

Seemed harmless, now let me add the supervisor was Hispanic and the photo he showed was group of men of similar ethnicity except the one black guy off to the right half of the photo. It was crazy that at the same time I had that thought about the individual black guy, my supervisor brings him to make a point about how the man was his best friend, he also includes that he wanted to make that point so we didn't feel like he was being racist in any way. It wasn't something that really crossed our minds...well not at least until he made that point. I almost wanted to remind him that, just because you have a black friend that doesn't mean you aren't racist...It simply means you have a black friend.  I didn't `want to burst his bubble as he seemed really proud of himself. Me and Rhonda looked at each other and just left well enough alone. We laughed about it on break.

The conclusion to this is that it was too rigid and eventually had to make my departure. I personally felt the work and the hours didn't reflect in the pay, would I try it again? I mean maybe, i'm just not at that point in life currently. Now thats out of the way lets talk about something more fun in the next post where I got fired for waiting for a bereavement leave...

Saturday, January 1, 2022

While I was out. A welcome note ❤️

happy new year! Lets start there 💚


Being gone for so long you almost forget where to begin. I wanted to take some time out to catch up because I FEEL WE (as in me and you as an audience) don't exactly know each other. So no better way to catch up then to start giving you a little bit of background of where Im at in life. From there we will proceed on with other things. So here's to getting off on a good foot, I would like to add that there is no disclosure notice I am only talking about things that are purely within my immediate life.

Okay first to everyone new here my name is Andeigh i'm 27 and I spend a lot of my time trying to figure out where I belong in life like the rest of us. I spend all day dancing and trying to figure why people are shitty in the workplace. I sleep on a couch and my dog is my counselor. I dont have many friends because they dont share the sea obsessive interests that In do. I dont take myself too seriously and I do aver two kids and I pride myself in being the most non traditional parent. Im an art enthusiast and I don't always look on the bright side of life but thats to be expected. I'm a Pisces if that ever really mattered but to some people it does but I have gotten great reviews none the less. My hairs is always full of color and I'm the happiest piece of shit that I've been in a long time. It feels nice not making the understatement of the year.

But enough about me what about you? How are you? How are things going? I know you aren't suppose to start a sentence off with but, but this is my blog and I can do whatever I want and around here we spend a lot of time breaking all of the rules. For example: I just quit my full time job to pursue a a potential career in behavioral sciences. Ive decided that it was best not to be a full time worker and that it was time to become a full time student and I can honestly say it was the best choice Ive made so far. Believe it or not that particular choice has gotten me a lot of backlash, some people couldn't grasp the concept that I am a horrible worker and a much better thinker. I do though still understand the perspective, some people can't just make a move that steep and still make it out in the end and thats okay. No offense to anyone who decides to go the other way but it still isn't fair that opposite perspective isn't respected.

To some people thats not really a rule breaker but in a world where "all minds think alike" a different perspective isn't all that refreshing. How about you? Are you comfortable with your life and the choices that you made to get where you are? I mean I don't mean to pry but I am just curious. I wish someone had asked me that very same question long ago. I dint particularly have an answer because at the time I didn't really give it any thought. I substantiated the answer to the question by being naive and lying to myself and I don't want that to happen to any of my other counter parts. Some choices I'm happy with others I would change but over all Im happy with the final product and that within itself reminds me that nothing should count more than that. 

While I was out I learned quite a few things about myself an others and it I spent a whole year just on self reflection and it was the best thing I could have ever done for myself and my mental health. I finally learned that I don't have to be anything in this life that I don't want to be and that I don't have to be bound by the same constructs as others. Life feels like abs illusion and it never felt like I was actually being my full and authentic self. I felt trapped by all the rules they lie out for you. From day one they are telling you who you should be and how to be it and if you tried to bend that mold the world wouldn't accept you in any way. Well quite frankly I am tired of following the same rules day in and day out, we have been doing it for decades. 

Its a sense of restlessness, I guess you could say...This very same restlessness that I feel in my heart and soul is draining. I keep searching for the unknown cure but I don't think there is one. I think the only left to do is just stop and start giving my own way, living within the rules while making my own rules. Don't you feel the same way? Don't you feel like since day 1 when they laid out the rules of who you should be in a society that "wouldn't accept you if you were different", didn't make sense from day 1? I know we are different and we all don't think the same and that some of us are fine with playing by the rules and being whatever they tell us to be, thats perfectly fine and will always be okay. I still have to remember though that the sentiment won't be shared and the I'm going to constantly be looked down on for not playing the game they wanted me to play.

As each day goes on I take it all in stride, as should you. I know this was a lot to take in but this is the welcome Im extending and I'm so happy to have you here. Life is out of order but we can change that with a little perspective ❤️