Hey all! I just want to start off that this is going to be one of my more serious posts because for the last few months I have been struggling as well as a lot of other people in my life. So I figured the best way for my readers to get more comfortable with me on a human level is too really dish out the problems that I have as a human as well. So here goes.
These last few weeks have been especially rough for me. The reason being is from time to time I suffer from dysphoria. Now for those of you who don't know what that is let me break it down, its not quite like depression in a sense where I am extremely sad, but more so extremely dissatisfied with life. Weather it be with my living situation, job, family friends. I can have dysphoria about all of these things. My dysphoria doesn't leave me in my room crying though. It just leaves me uncomfortable and not fully able to engage in all of these things. Its like I am on autopilot and I'm going through the motions.
It is hard for most people to understand because they confuse it with depression. They don't understand the out of body feeling that I get when it comes time to do these things. I always feel like I am on the outside of myself looking in. It's terrible and not too mention I'm having a crisi with my sexuality. That's a whole different spectrum to be discussed. I mostly want to touch on Dysphoria.
Some days are harder then others but I know I can make it for the simple fact that's I have gone through these stages before. The bout lasted for 2 years. I'm still in recovery but no counseling. So I'm really thankful for everyone out there who supported and is supporting me through this intense time.
Be sweet to everyone you never know who's carrying a dark cloud.
肇👯
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