"I dont think selfies are a bad thing, I think its nice to take a photo and really appreciate yourself"
"Everyones favorite thing about me is my smile. I think that's great but my eyes are bright, my tattoos are interesting, but overall Im happy"
" Non-smiling but I can't necessarily say I'm frowing, tell me something about you I spend aloof time taking about myself"
"Im not saying this is my favorite photo? However would you have considered it my favorite photo if I never in fact said anything towards this being my favorite photo"?? Just curious?
"Okay I rambled on a bit in that last and I truly apologize, this is me trying to have active dissuasions with my readers in a fun way"
"Reaching, does it sound like reaching? I got high the second half of the post, and Im trying my best"
"Lets stay on topic"
"You ever just feel like you have to stop being so distracted, and im talking more then just work and daily duties type thing, im talking like the people in your life and some of the repetitve habits they have?"
"My ex didnt posses much self love and that's basically why our relationship ended, its pretty wild, I feel for him though, its a tough thing to acquire and one day he will acquire it, well we can all hope"
This was a bit of an exercise with me I want to do more with the photos and aesthetics that I take. I want to actually tell a sequence of stories or at least let everyone experience it their own way. We will see where this goes after this trial run...
Look I know here I go again? Have a lot of you read this ever sit and wonder, where the fuck does she go when she goes on hiatus? Okay I guess you could say I could at least have something to say in my few months of absence.
Okay yeah the content of the blog is "Life: Out of order" well with that being said, Ive been trying to move platforms, since a lot of my audience was centered around the google plus community. Thats why I pressed a lot of you to subscribe HOPEFULLY YOU DID. (If you didnt Im sure we will find our way to each other again.
Secondly: It takes a lot of content and a lot of me living my life to actually come up with what it takes to give all of you interesting narratives. I have had a lot of life situations come up and I am definitely excited to share it all with you.
Third: Im giving everyone a lot of time to catch up when its comes to the quantity of the posts I have.
Fourth: I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS, BEAR WITHHH ME, im out here caught in adulthood like the rest of you guys :)
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NO SERIOUSLY!!!!
I have come to learn that in order to fuel the content of this blog with personal experiences I probably need to get more consistent and actually go out live my life and have more things to talk about. These last few weeks have been kind of out of whack and the reason I say that is because my mental health has been out of whack and I decided I needed yet another break from life to get my shit together. The unfortunate part about that is that if im sitting in bed all day wallowing in despair I should be able to talk about it on my blog. After all a good portion of you have a very good insight into my relationships, regular and sexual. Im committed to staying fully motivated and dedicated this time. I have worked through a lot these last few months and somedays I didnt even think I would make it. I was struggling with rampant suicidal thoughts and I was stricken with anxiety attacks left and right. Riley and a few others helped me work through it and they are definitely glad I did so. So heres too a new a year and all the crazy stories I have no problem telling you all in pure confidence :)
Now here we are, back again with the work related stories. Now, I want to disclose early on that this narrative might have a lot of content left out due to the fact that there are things I have not really addressed, but you get the idea in the Narrative about politicians and politics. This post is going to touch on my experience with getting fired for the very first time. I am quite sure some of you can relate.
Here it is, a lovely Tuesday and I found myself naïve to the fact that a few days ago, I just got talked to about my leave of absence, that I had to take for personal reasons I cannot disclose here because that is a whole other Narrative I am working on, lets start by saying it leads back to my car Dawson. (Oh joy, here we go again) I first want to go over small details about what happened, leading up to that. One minor detail was that I needed a few days off to make some personal decisions and when that did not go quite as planned, I guess you could use that analogy with the hot water!! Yeah I was in it, I was not too sure if I was going to see my way out of it in time, but at the end of the day I think we all really knew what the conclusion was going to be.
I hop on the phone and I am calling Howard, he answers, he just tells me to relax and that we will discuss it later on that day! Now as you can all imagine my mind was everywhere. I did not really trust Howard and I figured that his reasoning would be a bunch of bullshit. Later on in the shift Howard calls me to the desk, he has got a fucked up look on his face and I had already kind of figured that maybe I got fired right then and there, but it turns out it gets a little bit deeper than that. He starts off by going over the edge with my attendance and how shitty it has been. (That Idea in and of itself was a little bit of a joke and an insult to me in the sense that I have not been late to work in damn near four months) even then, I did not get written-up by coming in late. Oh no, it was more or so all the LOA getting denied because the company has a very indirect "set you up for failure" type of hype and that was the worst thing about it.
It was a very confusing situation, Howard tried to make it seem like he had my best interest in mind the whole time and that he was not trying to see me go down like this, but it is hard to believe when he is the one who has been letting it get this far if he really stood behind his statement he would have fired me on the first offense. The whole thing was fishy to me, but there was definitely more time to be worried! Unfortunately Howard found someway to let the case get to HR's hands and we know from there what exactly was going to happen! He and I both knew I was done. The one thing I guess you can say I hated most was the fact that he retracted all of his statements when it came down to my performance. He had the nerve to root that as the reasoning to why he denied the leave and from then.
I go back feeling slightly defeated I almost wanted to walk off the job, but I figured I would make as much money as I could until they did the deed. It was sort of stressful though, I was putting in for jobs like crazy in the off event that they did cut me early. That point in time caught me off guard too, Riley had been working his job for a while so I figured everything would work out for the best! Now, lets jump about two weeks in. It is a long Tuesday, things are kind of dry in the work world. Friends were dropping like flies, getting fired. I am standing outside minding my own business just to have Dallas LeGrange approach me, sometimes we call her DEEBO, she had a body the screamed body building but she had a face that also screamed "Too many 'xans', and botox not too mention she smeared her face in make up. Drag race did not teach her a thing.
She was a bully in and of her own right, I feel like she has got the politics so locked down that she could be a sub level CEO maybe even get recognized by Elon. Anyways as I was saying...I run into her and she really did not have much to say to me either it was like a really dry cold shoulder. This was coming from the woman who was usually so chipper to see me. It felt weird but I knew what to expect especially after the incident with Marisol a few months back. I didnt care the whole factory knew the bitch was fake so I paid her no mind. The only problem with that was she seemed to have an attitude behind the way I did my job. She even went as far as her telling Howard that I allegedly was sleeping on the job. Which wasn't actually the case, I spent my time watching ,music videos in the bathroom little did she know but hey I left it where I left it. No need to fix it if it isn't broken.
The feeling still lingered and I constantly searched online for other jobs. I even got to a point where I subtly stopped doing my job so to speak. I mean I would get there on time but I kinda just sat there, made phone calls and watched movies on my phone , I got the occasional nap in but I made sure I jumped anytime someone came near or called out to me from a far distance. It worked out in my favor in the long run. I was tired of the place and I got tired of other employees playing snitch to kiss Howards ass. I kept too myself but I stayed really vigilant I tased my shot and voiced my opinion day in and day out. It was kind of annoying quo Howard but he wasn't around much to really give it the time of day. He just chatted It up with Marisol and thats where he probably vented his frustrations.
The whole job damn near seemed like a joke it went on like this for another, I even got naive to it, for some reason I started to think that maybe HR dropped it among so many other situations that go on in this place, that was up until the lovely phone call I received. I was roaming around Target trying to get baby boy something for his birthday that day, I am with Riley at the time and the whole trip started off good...Until, I started getting a phone call from Howard. I already had a feeling I knew what it was about, and it almost provoked me not to pick up. I answered anyways and you can hear the painfulness In Howards voice especially when he said he was sitting with our HR rep which was a bit odd in and of itself.
My logic was, how the fuck was he sitting with HR on our off day? If they were at the factory why didnt they just do a 3 way phone call, instead of passing the phone back and forth. The whole thing was unusual but I let them say what they had to say. Even though we all knew the conclusion, even Howard tried to stay in good graces by telling me he tried to save me. However he already fucked himself over when he told me Dallas has been wanting me out for over a few months. I knew he was in on it too he couldn't fool me. That was a load of bullshit especially when I come to find out that was the one igniting this to HR. He didnt want to be held responsible for firing me. After the HR rep finished explaining to me what was going to happen and the packet I was going to get. I hung up the phone and went about my day. It wasn't the worst thing to happen and I took it for what it was. Riley kind of just stared at eachother blankly
